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Pornography

Porn addiction isn’t just a guy thing

“... but you’re a girl!?”

If I had a dollar for every time I heard that given the context that is about to follow, I’d have about twenty bucks. Sure, it isn’t much, but then again, I’ve only told my story twenty times. It never fails. I am a mother of two, and a wife to a wonderful, forgiving, and loving husband. I have been a member of the Church since I was baptized as an infant, and I am a sinner.

This is a story about grace. That’s really all it can amount to. I would love to think that I got through all of this on my own accord and by my own strength, but that isn’t the case. It’s grace.

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When I was still in my early teens, about twelve, I was flicking through the channels on our television. I was supposed to be babysitting, and well, I was – but all my siblings were in bed.

Click, click, click. Nothing.

And then, I saw IT. A naked couple on the screen.

It wasn’t long before my parents arrived back home, and since our window was large enough to see them coming from literally a kilometer away, I had enough time to change the channel and bolt downstairs to my bed and begin to pretend I was sleeping.

It began with curiosity

I never told my parents about what I saw. And instead of confiding in those who had raised me from infancy, who I literally trusted with my life, I turned to our new computer and told Google instead. I was young enough that I didn’t understand what exactly I was searching for, but I was old enough to know how to work a keyboard and spell words. The next time I found myself home alone, I pulled up a chair, typed in a few key words and found what I had been looking for.

What started off as “innocent” curiosity became a full-blown addiction.

Minutes turned into hours, and the hours repeated themselves every couple days. I started to like what I was seeing and soon enough, it became a part of my daily routine. I started looking forward to those private moments, but in return, started hating myself, my body, and God. I would stay home as often as I could just to go on the computer. I watched soap operas instead of going to school, and one day, I put a computer in my room. I struggled on and off for years without anyone knowing.

My battle began before unlimited wifi, before I had my own smartphone, Instagram and Snapchat account, or personal laptop. It was still difficult to find and pornography sites were “restricted” to those over 18 years. Now, it’s everywhere.  It’s been a little over one year since the last time I watched pornography. It’s been a very trying yet powerful year. I struggle with it every single day, multiple times per day.

In the midst of my battle, I pushed God aside. I figured that if God wasn’t in the picture, I didn’t have to worry about whether or not what I was doing was sinful. I had convinced myself that He didn’t love me anyway, so what was the point of trying to make Him happy with me.

As the distance between God and myself grew, the hatred I began to see in the mirror increased. I started to compare myself to the women I had seen on the screen; my skin wasn’t smooth enough, my breasts weren’t large enough, my legs weren’t skinny enough (I was a size zero!), my nose was too long, my teeth too pointy… the list could go on and on. I began to think that if I looked like the women on the screen, maybe I would have the love that they had too.

The reality

If only I had known the truth about the “love” that those women were experiencing. Plain and simple - porn is often drug-induced rape. Now, who in their right mind would actually want that? It all happened so fast.  One moment they would be meeting each other and the next moment they would be on the bed. But, I didn’t fully understand the truth behind the scenes of what I was watching, so I actually had myself convinced that that was what sex was like.

I suppose since it was on the screen I could pretend that it was normal. Yet, it isn’t normal. I told my mother of my struggle last year, and she said something that I had never thought of before. She said “Those women on the screen, those men too, they are someone’s sister. Someone’s daughter, mother, brother and father. They are real people, with real families and real lives.” Bam. If any statement helped me through my battle the most, that was definitely a big contender. You have to think of it in real life, because it is real life. If you were to come across a couple having sex on the street, would you grab a chair, some popcorn and indulge yourself? Nope. And yet, what I was watching on the screen was just as real as that.

Satan likes the dark

I remember the first time I decided I was going to stop watching pornography. It lasted a week. I had stayed up late and at that time had access to a computer. I dare say that Satan works best at night. I even remember these words running through my brain: “Go on! One minute wouldn’t hurt”. Well, I had gone a full week and I was on the road to recovery, but I hadn’t found my strength in God at that time, and the one minute became an hour which became a daily routine. Again.

Why even bother trying to stop? I would argue with myself, It’s impossible, anyway! I had become so invested in my guilty pleasure that it was easy enough to come up with stupid excuses to shut my conscience up. I knew that even though a part of me wanted to stop, a very large part of me didn’t. Even times when I would fall on my knees and pray for forgiveness, deep down I knew that I actually didn’t mean it.

I was a pretty techy kid growing up, so no one actually found out about my addiction. I figured if no one really knew about it, and I could pretend that nothing was different, no one would suspect anything. There was a point in my life that I actually thought I just wouldn’t tell anyone.

It impacted dating

But then, I found myself in a serious relationship with a man whom I now call my husband. We had been dating for a few years when I told him. He was the first person I had ever told. I remember sitting in the car before I went in to see him, praying fervently to God that he wouldn’t break up with me and that he would forgive me.

He did forgive me.

We dated for a long time. And well, I would love to say that my experience with pornography did not affect our relationship but unfortunately it did. It was easy to convince myself that in order to feel loved I had to be touched. After all, that is what I had polluted my brain with for many previous years! We weren’t the definition of “innocent” in our relationship and I will take most of the responsibility for those actions. I could chalk it up to the fact that we were young, or that we dated for a long time, or maybe that our hormones were raging.

And sure, those might have had an effect, but when it really comes down to the heart of the matter – it’s just that, the heart. My heart, and if I can speak on behalf of my husband, his too, were not centered on God. Mine didn’t pay attention to what God says love is: “patient, kind, slow to anger….” (1 Cor. 13). To me, love was attention from my boyfriend - any attention he wanted to give, and any attention I could take. I had tried to find satisfaction in a fellow sinner, instead of looking to our one, perfect and holy God.

We went through periods of lust and other periods of just finding pure joy in each other’s company. Thankfully, with a wedding ahead, our time of engagement was focused where it should have been all along, and we began to enjoy each other as God’s forgiven children.

It didn’t just stop with marriage

There is a saying: “Satan will do anything he can before you are married to get you into bed, and anything he can do when you are married to get you out of it.”

It is difficult for me to write this next part, but it’s part of my story. I watched pornography as a wife. I took matters into my own hands when I didn’t feel like sharing my feelings or frustrations with my husband. Mainly it was just because I was bored or lonely. It happened. I hate that it happened, but that doesn’t mean that it didn’t. If there were any part of this whole struggle I could wish never happened, this would be it.

My husband is so forgiving. If there is any word I could use to describe him, that would be it. He has stood by me and encouraged me in my fight against pornography more times than I dare count. He is the one to point me to my Rock. I took one evening to share with him my struggles – every last detail – all the whos, whats, whens, whys and hows. He is now my partner in my fight and I know that he would leave everything if he knew that I was being tempted, to come and help me fight.

It’s been a little over a year since I have last watched pornography. I am 25, and have struggled with it on and off for more than 10 years. It is still a daily struggle: every time I go to the beach, the mall, pull out my phone, go on Facebook, Instagram, the computer. Videos and images I watched as a teenager will suddenly appear in my mind as I am washing the dishes, doing the laundry, vacuuming, sitting in church, even praying! The struggle has not left me, and I dare say it never will.

God’s grace

I would love to say that I have all of this under control. I don’t. God does. One year ago, I put my battle in His hands and prayed with tears that He would take this cup from me. And praise be to God, He has. He has given me the strength I need to put my smartphone away, to turn off the laptop, to double check the ratings of shows before I go and watch them. He has strengthened my faith in his Son and His forgiveness. He has given me grace and love. I have found freedom in my walk, a spring back in my step and more love for my husband than I even thought possible.

I remember sitting in church one Sunday hearing a sermon on the Lord’s Supper. At one point during the sermon, the minister asked us to picture Christ hanging on the cross – I don’t remember very much after that because I knew what he meant. Picture my sin hanging there on Christ’s shoulders. I put him there. I stood before him yelling “Crucify him! Crucify him!” That is the moment I realized it wasn’t impossible. I had Christ on my side, and he had conquered sin. My sin. He put it to death! For me.

So I continue on, fighting, finding my hope in God’s promises:

“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only Son of God” (John 3:16-18).

“But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us” (Romans 5:8).

And as my wise mother has taught me, “Don’t be surprised by sin. Be surprised by grace.” Thanks mom.

Advice from a former addict to you:

  1. Talk to your children/friends. Be the one to bring up the topic in a conversation. I often find it easier to talk about the “big topics” one on one rather than in a group. Ask them to be honest with you, and be quick to listen and slow to speak. Humble yourself as the parent/friend. Also, don’t assume that since you’ve talked to them once, they know and they won’t do it. We are all curious and sinners by nature.
  2. Pray with and for your children/friends/family.
  3. Set an example: Stay on top of what you and your children/friends watch/read. Are you setting a good example? It’s one thing to say, “Hey Jonny – don’t watch porn” but if they see you watching The Game of Thrones or even porn itself, you’re setting an example of how to be a hypocrite.
  4. Use your resources! For movies there’s www.kids-in-mind.com, and even the parents’ guide on www.imdb.com. And PluggedIn is a great resource to double check movies/books or even apps before you or your children watch them.
  5. Protect your computer. Get the laptops and smartphones out of bedrooms and into a public area. I know – it creates more clutter. But do you know what kind of clutter is more disgusting? A pornography filled mind. It’s worth a messy desk. Trust me. Password protect your wifi and change the password/turn off the wifi at a specific time at night.
  6. Don’t be afraid to discipline.
  7. Have an accountability partner. This one is tough because it requires you to be honest and open with someone. If you feel temptation, that is the time to talk with them. Not after you give in, but before that – when you feel like you might give in. As the accountability partner, pray for your friend/child. Uphold them and encourage them in their times of weakness.
  8. Encourage your children and friends in their inner beauty. Compliment them on their kindness or gentle spirit instead of their new jeans or new hairstyle. Teach each other how to put on the fruits of the Spirit instead of eyeliner and mascara. Teach your son how to look for the right kind of woman and how to put on the armor of God.
  9. If you are bored, find something to do that does not include a laptop or smartphone. The Bible is an excellent place to start.
  10. Speak highly of the love of God and show the love of God in your home. Instill in your, and your child’s heart, John 3:16-18.
  11. Model repentance to your children. For example, if you lose your temper and shout at them, ask their forgiveness. Let them see what seeking forgiveness, and turning to God in repentance looks like.
  12. Forgive. Forgive. Forgive.

This article first appeared in the November/December 2016 issue of the magazine. To ensure accountability – that a writer is willing to stand behind what they write – RP doesn’t publish anonymous pieces, but for the nature of this article made an exception in this case.

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Politics

Should Alberta Separate? Why one Christian decided to vote no

“Canada is like an old cow. The West feeds it. Ontario and Quebec milk it. And you can well imagine what it’s doing in the Maritimes.” ~ attributed to Tommy Douglas, premier of Saskatchewan from 1944-1961 I am a true-blue Albertan, born and raised in this province, and I truly haven’t found a better place to live. However, with a referendum looming in October I’ve been presented with the choice of whether my allegiance is to Alberta or to my country Canada. In October, Albertans will vote on the question: “Should Alberta remain a province of Canada, or should the Government of Alberta commence the legal process required under the Canadian Constitution to hold a binding provincial referendum on whether or not Alberta should separate from Canada?” Maybe your back goes up immediately – with words like disloyal, unpatriotic, and betrayal going through your mind. Or maybe you feel disillusioned with Canada and understand why a province would want to separate. If I’m perfectly honest, I never felt like Alberta independence was a real thing. It’s been an idea at the back of Alberta political dialogue for my whole life, but mostly proposed in a joking way – “Wouldn’t we be better off if we were our own country?” But now the sentiment is real enough to send enough signatures on a petition to get the question put to a referendum. Despite my skepticism of independence, I have always been sympathetic to western alienation. But my instinct was still to vote “stay” – that there was something good about loyalty, that grievance wasn’t enough of a reason to leave, that respect for my country meant not tearing it apart. But my instinct was not enough. So, when faced with writing this article, I knew what I had to do – I had to go beyond my own feelings and impressions. I needed to go out and talk to other Albertans, to figure out what exactly was going on, and to hear in their own words why they supported or did not support independence. But more importantly than that, I needed to compare their thoughts and opinions to the Word of God. What should Christians think of all this separatism talk? Background Let’s first start with the “why” behind the independence movement. I have sympathy for western alienation, and in my view it started with the eastern provinces viewing the development of the West as a resource for them to profit from. And while that makes sense from the perspective of Central Canada, the West never felt fully included in Canada. Oil complicated this picture. It turned Alberta from a “have not” province based on farming to a “have” province based on oil, and gave it some power in terms of financial wealth. However, the federal government saw this as further resources to profit from, and implemented a series of taxes and programs to spread the financial wealth around the rest of Canada. For example, here is how one prominent supporter of Albertan independence, Tim Stephens, put it in a speech on April 10: “Alberta, having about 12% of the population of Canada, contributes nearly 20% to the federal tax revenue. And when this takes place, we have very little influence over the political future of our country. For instance, many of the elections are decided by Ontario and Quebec. And before people here even cast their vote, who our next government is going to be has already been decided.” There is a feeling in Alberta that many provinces in Canada are happy to take our money as long as we don’t have any opinions on either how the country is run or what the federal government wants to do in our own province. Separatists will argue that through all these years, Albertans have tried through various political means to reform this system, to give Alberta a louder voice in a country they fund. Their conclusion is that the lack of success makes separation our only option. So this is why I’m sympathetic to some of the arguments of the separatists. However, this raises several questions. Is “grievance” enough of a reason to base a new country on? Or even just the simple fact of being treated unfairly? God calls us to respect and obey our leaders, which means we have some responsibility in the place where we’re at. When do we judge we’ve made “enough” effort and our responsibility has come to an end? Lastly, there’s the question of the harm it would cause to our brothers and sisters in the rest of Canada. Even the mention of separation causes some economic instability. Is this justified? I’m sympathetic and yet I feel a deep loyalty to Canada, and the home it provided to my Dutch ancestors fleeing the aftermath of WWII, to my husband when he immigrated, and now provides to our family. “Personally, I argue that Alberta independence is compatible with biblical Christianity,” says Michael Wagner, another well-known supporter of independence, “but desiring Canada to stay together can also legitimately be a Christian perspective. So I don’t think the Bible requires Alberta Christians to support independence.” Each Christian needs to think about why they are voting one way or the other. Love for country, love for neighbor While the motivations for separation are understandable, so is the backlash against the idea. For those who love Canada, it stirs up strong emotions. It’s like a sibling threatening to leave the family or to go “no contact.” This is true not only in the rest of the country, but in Alberta itself. While much of Alberta feels alienated from the political apparatus out East, many still feel deep loyalty and patriotism for Canada itself. Some have even become Canadian citizens specifically because they love Canada, and don’t want to be part of a different country. This is why this issue has become so divisive. I began to reach out to various friends to hear how they’ve been thinking this issue through. “We have also been given political responsibility as those who vote,” one says to me. “In a small way, we are those who bear the sword when we vote, when we choose what we believe is right for our nation. It is not evil to make what one believes to be the right choice in that vote. What is evil is insurrection, rebellion, and violence. But a referendum (democratic vote) is none of those things. Nor is a free discussion about why we think a political decision is right or wrong. Christians should concur with the legitimate result of the election, but they are free to think and vote as they see fit.” It is true that mechanisms for provinces to leave have been worked out by the courts, and Alberta is not the first province to explore the option of leaving (see Quebec and Nova Scotia). It’s not immoral to explore an existing legal pathway to independence. But the motivations and reasons behind doing so may be. Take the issue of grievances. “It’s one thing to forgive a grievance when it’s in the past,” the same friend tells me. “It’s another to remain complicit when that injustice is still ongoing. We can love (an act, not a feeling) our nation without believing that the nation has our best interests at heart.” However, another friend argues, “As a father, I do not want to raise my boys to think that if you feel like you are treated unfairly, the answer is to threaten grievous harm to get what you want. That’s extortion and sinful.” He goes on to add, “A sovereign God has overseen this election, Carney is doing some good things in which I can rejoice, and I can pray for God’s hand in those areas that concern me and trust in Him.” Next, I decide to reach out to my sister and get her opinion. She texts back to me: “One of the things that comes up the most often in the Bible is ‘take care of the widows and orphans and the poor’ – will separating improve people’s lives? Right now equalization payments benefit poorer provinces – isn’t that a good thing from a Christian perspective?” I quickly text back, “One argument would be that the Bible teaches us to voluntarily help the poor, not that other people (the government) should make us help the poor.” She replies, “I would say that it’s more that we should have an attitude of helping the poor – including through the government.” That resonated with me, because it put into words something I had been struggling to articulate. If I want to keep Alberta’s money because I resent helping others like me in the rest of Canada, maybe my motivation is wrong. I might not agree with exactly how the government takes the money, but I should maintain my care for others even while I might advocate for better use of the money we send. Lastly, I decide to listen to a speech available on YouTube on a Christian perspective on Albertan independence. In it, Clint Humfrey, senior pastor of Calvary Grace Church in Calgary, urges Christians to support the cause: “That is what we need today here in Alberta. We need to expect great things from God and attempt great things for God... We ought to seek the relief of our neighbors groaning. We ought to seek the relief of our own groaning in our churches, but we also ought to seek the relief of our children’s future and the provision for them... If you have no hope, you will not be able to have the drive to see what could be done. And it starts with having hope in Jesus Christ for eternal life. And that then gives you the ability to have hope to try things… to try things all for the glory of God.” For a brief moment, his excitement fired me up. But his vision was not my vision, though I certainly care about doing great things for God. The energy and effort required to build a new nation is not where I feel God calling me to work today, even as I try to care for my neighbors around me in my quiet, ordinary life. Love for God I feel somewhat lost in all the arguments for and against. My husband is one of the people whose opinions I value most in this world. So, on a recent trip out of town I took the opportunity of discussing it with him. “Why don’t you support independence?” I ask. “Because it’s about money,” he says. “What are we supposed to do when we’re afraid? Rely on God and keep our eyes fixed on Jesus. Yes, things are hard for people and gas prices are high. But – ” he gestures at the fields as we drive by, “wouldn’t you say Alberta is rich?” “Ye-es,” I answer, thinking of the not-so-rich country my husband grew up in. “So Alberta is prosperous, let’s trust God will continue to prosper us.” “Okay, so what about this,” I say. “The argument is that the federal government does a lot of unchristian things with our money, and if we kept more of it we could use it for more Christian things.” “Really?” he says. “Do you really think Alberta is more Christian? Alberta isn’t more Christian.” “Why do you say that?” “We have all the same issues as the rest of Canada.” “But maybe statistically the number of Christians is slightly higher in Alberta?” “Think about it,” he says. “Say the Prime Minister gives us what we want – more say, and lets us keep our money. We’d be happy, right? We say it’s all these unchristian laws, but that makes me think it’s about the money.” I nod along because in my discussions I had come across many supporters of having more sovereignty but staying in Canada (and using this referendum as leverage to get it), or arguments that threatening separation had worked for Quebec so we should do it too. I think there are ardent separatists for whom nothing but independence would satisfy, and I hope Christians who vote to leave are not primarily motivated by the idea of leverage – but this group is smaller than the number of people who might vote “leave.” “So, biblically,” I say, “what would you say the Christian thing is to do?” “What does the Bible say? ‘Give to Caesar what is Caesar’s.’ That goes deeper than money – it goes to everything: respect, support, everything unless the government comes against our faith.” I nod again, thinking of something similar John Calvin said that I’d read a while back: “But Peter requires something more of us when he says, ‘Honor the king’ (1 Pet. 2: 17); and Solomon, when he says, ‘My son, fear thou the Lord and the king’ (Prov. 24: 21). For, under the term honor, the former includes a sincere and candid esteem, and the latter, by joining the king with God, shows that he is invested with a kind of sacred veneration and dignity...” My husband looks over at me. “And you know what? The government is coming against our faith. Why not fight that more? We’re willing to stand up for our money, to fight taxes, etc. We’ll fight when the government takes our money and gives it to someone else, but otherwise we stick to ourselves because we don’t want to rock the boat.” He pauses. “There’s a reason God gave us this government, and put these people in power over us. Maybe it’s to teach us how much we need to call on Him.” I think about all the energy that had gone into this separatism debate, and whether it was distracting us from other things. He reaches over and grabs my hand. “Look at Psalms 35-40. I’ve been reading these in the morning lately. It’s all about the poor being oppressed. But who rescues them? God. Who fixes injustice? God. We need to cry out to Him. He’s the one who has our lives in His hands.” Later, I look up Psalms 35-41. In Psalm 37, I read: Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. … Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; do not fret when people succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes. Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret – it leads only to evil. For those who are evil will be destroyed, but those who hope in the Lord will inherit the land. We can spend a lot of time fretting in our lives, over what we perceive as unfair, over evildoers “getting away” with something, over what might happen in our futures. But we don’t need to despair when God is on our side. *** I want to be fair, so I reach out to Michael Wagner by email. He replies: “The federal government in recent years has imposed policies on Alberta that undermine the well-being of many Albertans and their families. Looking for an alternative that provides a better future for Alberta has nothing to do with greed, ungodly grievances, or threats. Independence is an option that would make it possible for Albertans to choose political leaders who will adopt policies that will benefit Alberta rather than harm Alberta.” He also says, “It’s about justice, not greed.” I think about the issues at hand for many evenings as I rock my baby to sleep, staring at her beautiful face and wondering about the kind of future I want for my family. For me, my journey over the past couple years has been learning to fully trust God with everything in my life. To let go of control and really believe God will take care of my life. What kind of country do I want my daughter to live in? I think about the “what if” vision that the supporters of independence have put forward, a vision of a more Christian nation we could build if we could just start over from scratch. I think about how much easier it is to tear things down rather than to build them. I think about Canada stagnating, losing its place in the world, and what that would look like for my daughter’s future. I think about the nation that I love and what I would want to tell her about it. Ultimately I don’t have control over the future. It is enough if my daughter is able to trust herself into the hands of God. And in the end, I will stay Albertan AND Canadian. I don’t see a compelling vision of Alberta as a sovereign nation yet, and I haven’t given up on Canada. I haven’t done everything in my power to change the country I love for the better yet. And so I will continue to trust myself and my family into God’s hands....

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Evangelism

Real Talk: Would you risk your life for the gospel?

This episode can also be found on your favorite podcast platform: Spotify, Apple, Podbean, Amazon Music or on our website. Be sure to subscribe to our YouTube channel and our podcast profiles so you can be notified when new episodes are released. Please note that this transcript below was automatically generated and lightly edited so it may contain some errors. ***** Opening For most Christians, foreign mission is something that we support from a distance. We pray, we give, and we hear stories from around the world. But what does it actually mean to leave the familiar and take the gospel to those who have never heard? In this episode, we're joined by Pastor James Folkerts, whose missionary journey has taken him through challenges few of us will ever face. His story is remarkable, and what God taught him through it is even more compelling. Together, we explore what foreign mission is, why it still matters in a world where the nations have come to us, and the reality of suffering for the gospel, and who should consider God's call to the mission field. Whether you're called to go, send, or simply want to better understand God's heart for the nations. This is a conversation you won't want to miss. We also want to let you know that we will be participating in the Reformed Perspective 10-day Screen Fast Challenge starting today, July 13th. It's not too late to join. Sign up today so you can log out, look up, and enjoy what matters most. To learn more or sign up, click the link in the description or go to reformperspective.ca. Intro The world's changing fast, but what questions should we really be asking? You're listening to Real Talk, a podcast presented by Reform Perspective, where we take God's Word and apply it to the nitty-gritty of life. Buckle up for real questions, real answers, and real direction. This is Real Talk. Tyler Vanderwoude Appreciate you joining us. That's it's gracious of you to come on and talk to us about world missions today. So yeah, thanks for Pastor James Folkerts Yeah, thanks having us. For having me, I always think of my wife being with me on this. TV I'm sure that's a strong partnership with some of the things you've gone through. JF Yeah, we've grown together through it, and it's a joy to serve Christ together in missions and in marriage together, so yeah, it's been a journey, that's for sure. TV Yeah, why don't you why don't you introduce yourself? I guess to the listeners a little bit. I guess to me a little bit. I don't know you well at all. So yeah, I guess how did you get here? And I kind of want to. I don't usually do this with guests, but I'm curious about your childhood and like how you got into having a love for the ministry and for mission work. JF Well, I was born and raised in Alberta in the Christian Reformed Church in Brooks, Alberta, and I remember one of the great things about being raised in the Christian Reformed Church back in the 70s and 80s, early 80s, was CRWRC, which was the Christian Reformed missions organization of that church, of that denomination. And I remember as a kid, you know, this was back in the day when you're trying to watch a hockey game and you're moving the bunny ears and the screen was so fuzzy, you could hardly see what was the puck and what was the, you know, the static, you know? So, I remember, and we never went to the movies, so we had these missionaries come to our church and they put on a big screen in color, a slideshow, and it was from Nigeria, and I remember seeing – I can still see in my mind like the lights are off, and as a kid, it's magical. You know, it was a magical experience of getting to hear about people serving Christ in Nigeria, and you know, people coming to believe in him and Christian education. So I think, like at a young age, those seeds were planted in my heart, and I started reading as a kid reading books about missionaries, John Patton, and even those Wambu books-I don't know if you remember those. TV Oh yeah! JF Just thinking about different cultures, and yeah, I had an interest in in that and hearing about people who were missionaries. And later on, my dad became a pastor, and we were in the United Reformed Church in Winnipeg, and I really just kept growing and wanting to do ministry, wanting to reach, bring Christ to the lost, and I had thought a lot about... I really, I really have a heart for the Middle East, and I studied at in my college, my undergrad. I had a Middle Eastern focus to some of my studies, and then after college, I did some framing construction work. I was a history major pre-seminary, and then I went to Israel to study at a school in Jerusalem, Jerusalem University College it was known as in early 2000, and there I was really struggling with what to do with my life and was thinking more an academic track and maybe teaching you know at a college level or something like that, but I saw students there who are like working on Ugaritic and working on a PhD that might take 10 years, and I thought, you know what, I want to work with people. And so after that, I quit that program, and then that fall went to Mid America and studied, started my DMIN or MDiv program, and my second summer assignment I went back to the Middle East and worked for Middle East Reform Fellowship, and that was a real blessing. I loved it. We got to meet Christians from all over the Middle East. This was before Syria went kaboom, and so I got to meet Christians from all over Syria, church leaders from the Presbyterian Church up there, and from Lebanon, and a lot of Christians from Egypt. And then after that first summer assignment, after or second summer assignment after graduation, then Mid America is really big on you know getting in the field and getting experience, and so after graduation, then I had half a year before my candidacy exam, so I was asked by that organization to come out again to the Middle East. So I went back out there. We were based in Cyprus, and I got, you know, a lot more experience during that time. And after my candidacy exam, then my home church in Winnipeg decided to send me out as a missionary. So I was ordained as a missionary in the United Reformed Churches and sent to go work in the Middle East again, and then I did a lot of time, a lot of my time there. In total, it was only two years, but I did a lot of time in northern Kenya on the border of South Sudan right after South Sudan had independence, and but it was still – South Sudan went through a you know a war of independence, and then they went through a civil war. You know, like the Americans had that, and those wars were kind of a little bit apart by a number of years, number of decades, but South Sudan had them basically back to back, and so we got to, I got to teach in Locachogyo on the border, church leaders, young people, and during that time, I'd met my wife-to-be in Canada, and I was on a one-year contract with MERF. At the end of that time, I thought, you know what? I need to, I was fresh out of seminary, I need to like just get into a quote normal church, and just learn, you know, my basic minister skills like writing sermons, working with people, figuring out who I am, as a pastor, and yeah, just because the mission field is, if you're a plant and you're planted in a weird pot that's the walls are really high and the dirt's only an inch deep, that plant's gonna grow, you know, five inches tall. It's gonna be all spindly and stuff. And you know, if you go to seminary and you go straight to the mission field, you can have some weird stuff can happen to you, will happen to you. And so I was seeing some of that too, and just recognizing if I'm going to get married and I have all this mission environment that I have to deal with, and I'm also really growing as a young pastor, I should come back and just be in a group in a consistory with elders who can also continue to shape and mold me where I can grow. And so that was one of the main reasons for not renewing out there, and then I came to Telkwa in the United Reformed Churches out there, in northern British Columbia, and that's where I served for a dozen or so years. And yeah, we have seven of our children out there, yeah, very fruitful time. We love the place. Very isolated. Had its challenges. Probably prepared us for the challenges that we'd have on the field later on. And then after, yeah, about after 12 years or so, then I was contacted by the Orthodox Presbyterian Church. About whether I'd consider doing foreign missions in East Africa, and since I'd already been out there almost 20 years ago as a single guy, you know, I had some idea of what it was like. I, in many ways, I left the mission field the first time with a lot of grief, wishing because that was my dream to be a missionary, so to speak. But I accepted God's call, and you felt like it was the right thing to come off the field at the time. But now to get to go back again was exciting. But yeah, it's a whole different thing when you're going with a family. And the Orthodox Presbyterian Church, they had been working with the same tribe that I had briefly worked with when I was in Kenya. Uganda's the country right to the west of Kenya, and yeah, in Uganda we were working with the Karamajung, and in in Kenya was with the Turkana tribe. And those are two different names, but it's the same tribal group of people. So essentially, when the OPC said you want to work with these people, I'm like, “well, describe them to me”, and they're telling me about them. I'm like, this sounds like the same group. I didn't know, and I said, "How do they say the name God? I said, "Do they say Akuj? And they're like, "Yeah.” I'm like, "This is the same group. Like I, I know these, I know this”, you know. So in the providence of God, my wife and I we went to check it out, and I felt uniquely called to that work. And really, I told the OPC, "Well, put us on the list. Just put us on the bottom of the list because you're looking at someone outside your denomination, and you have seven, and we have seven kids. So, like, obviously, like we're not your top pick. Little did I know, the bottom was also their top, you know. So it had, yeah. It was a was really really special work that that had been doing for over 20 years in this one place called Karamoja, and we were in the little village of Nakale, and it is when the mission when the OPC missionaries went up there years before they were working in a town called Embali, and they went up to this different tribal group that really had never been civilized under the British Empire, if you want to use that term, and they still lived their semi-nomadic life with polygamy, high levels of violence, drunkenness. When you, in order to get a wife, you have to basically steal someone else's cattle to pay the dowry to your father-in-law's family, and cattle raiding for that reason resulted in a lot of people getting murdered, and just a very violent, impoverished way of life. There's nothing really pristine about it, and in essence, when we got there, we got to really live in in an ancient anthropology, like living in the Old Testament. So I would say it's like living with Jacob and Esau with cell phones. So TV Was your wife on board with this? Like, was your wife excited to do this with all the kids? JF She was not too excited. No, she was kind of nervous, and obviously, you know, she was should. That was a good instinct, you know. TV Sounds like it. JF She had also grown up on the mission field. Her dad is a Canadian Reformed pastor, and they had served in Indonesia on the island of Sumba for a number of years. She grew up there, learning the Indonesian language and you know running around almost like a native tribal kid in a way, without electricity and all of that, so she knew that experientially what that meant-not just to live there, but also to come back to a Western lifestyle and what that mean for your kids, and what that mean for our kids. But yeah, we did feel the Lord calling us there. It was a process that we had to work through. One of the things that we saw when we went over there was that we were going to work with a team in Uganda that could really care for us and make this work. So we had people that would help with the education of our kids, homeschooling, and so it wasn't like we were just doing a bare pioneer work, moving into a village all by ourselves, and you know that it wasn't going to be safe. TV Right, so that helps a lot. Yeah, wow, that's quite the journey. Like you started, it sounds like you've almost never not been thinking about mission. Like it's, it just has been part of your life since you were a kid. Is that is that fairly common with people who do mission work; those who are called to be missionaries? JF I think God puts it on our hearts. It's one of my reasons for. I always talk to kids about missions. I think that's if you want to promote it, you have to start there, and it's a great place to start. I think of my other missionary friends. It's something that was planted in their hearts too at a young age, often. TV What did the time as a pastor? I guess 12 years is a long time to be a pastor, be away from the field, and then go back. Like, what did that teach you in the end? Like, was that was that a good idea? Was that something you would recommend others? JF Well, I guess everyone has their own path to the mission field, or and their own growth journey in ministry. But yeah, part of when you become a minister, you're learning about, it's not just getting your education at seminary and now you're good to go. I mean, maybe it is, but there is a real growth curve in just learning how to communicate well, learning how to teach well, how to teach all the Bible doctrines in a clear way, in a simple way, like just teaching catechism to young people is really important. If you can't really teach catechism, teach the basic doctrines to your own people and your own culture, how are you going to be able to simply do that into another culture? So that is a really big, that's a big need. Like I got to see people come over from Canada to Africa, guest pastors or something, and you listen to them teach or preach, and you see they're saying all the right things, but nothing's going into the, nothing's going into the audience because they're not speaking simply. They're not. You look at their audience, and they're all looking outside the fence at the cows that are going by. They're not able to hold their attention. So if you can't hold 12th graders' attention in catechism, if you get really frustrated with that and you can't work get through that, you're gonna have a really hard time on the mission field, right? Just saying the words doesn't mean that you're actually communicating well to the locals, so to really understand the… yeah, understanding how to communicate well is vitally important on the field, you know. And then you have many of cultural issues, language issues, and it’s really, really challenging, right? It's really challenging, and I can't say I'm, I did it well, but I could see like having. I'm thankful I had a dozen years under my belt, you know. TV Yeah. Did you get any formal training for that? Like for how to communicate in those settings, or is it basically was it kind of like, hey, you've done this, you know, you kind of go there here and there on internships or whatever, and then they just throw you at it? JF Yeah, I think ministry – it's like a good teacher, you know, in a Christian school, like the ones that have been doing for 25 years, like they know what they're doing by and large, right? And I think that's what experience does. And yeah, there's no better way than experience, not just reading a book or… So that that's I think, and some people are more gifted than others on that, but I think that's one of the qualifications. Like when you think about sending someone to the field, you know, are they able to teach? Are they able to teach in their own church? You know, when back here, you know? Do they do a really good job at it, or do they kind of, you know… Is it a gift? Is it their gift? Because you're spending that money to send this guy to the other side of the world, and if they don't have that gift, then you know maybe you need to look for someone else, right? TV Right. If someone has that, is that really the, I guess the biggest thing that makes a missionary successful? Like you were thrown from, from like the Middle East to, I guess, a similar belief system, maybe, but into Africa. Like you're spanning different cultures and different contexts, like, do you find that that's a big barrier, or having that kind of grounding of being able to teach sort of translates once you get past the language barrier or understanding the culture a little bit? JF Yeah, I just think like if to explain things simply into a culture, like in Karamoja, you have to be able to understand their own cultural context, their agrarian way of thinking. That's yeah, it's just entirely different worldviews. So once you get into that, you can't just take out your seminary notes and start explaining. You know, can't do that. You have to… even their own way of learning things in their own schools is often just rote memorization. So, you want to like try to think about how can we get you know them to do critical thinking, but at the same time, telling stories is teaching through stories is a very important way of, just like the Lord Jesus, it's a very important way of communicating and having things in a conversational tone rather than just here is a logical treatise on what whatever doctrine you're trying to explain, they won't get that right. TV Right, yeah, that makes sense. Was a lot of that work done for you when you got there? Like, did they understand and help you? JF Yeah, I was blessed to have, you know, three or four other missionaries who'd gone before us and had and their families and had really laid down a really good groundwork and had done a lot of translating of Westminster standards, the Shorter Catechism, and so for me, like even I didn't, I was trying to learn the language there, but. Since in Uganda English is the national language, the I could work with translators right off the bat. So that was, you know, that was really helpful. So yeah, I was by no means some big pioneer missionary or something like this. I got to kind of actually reap what other people had sowed. TV So did you did you already know the language then? JF No, I did not. And it’s an extremely difficult language. So, my wife is a language person. I'm not. I don't even speak English good. TV Like, what is that like? Because that to me is one of those things that's in my mind even as a kid like sitting through these presentations that was always a thing that I was like I'm not really a… I don't really even…. we had… I was in Ontario we had to learn French I wasn't good at that like you're already thinking like the barrier for me to be comfortable in that I mean, I don't even know if comfortable is the right word to be honest, but to be able to be effective, I guess in that environment, I just felt like for myself personally, I may have dismissed this as a thing in life because I think that barrier was just too big for me to grasp. Like, so what is that like to get over? Like, you make a decision after 12 years of being here, and I guess not comfortable, I guess, but you're making a big life move for your family, for everything, and then you still have this barrier of I'm not even going to be able to communicate when I get there. JF Well, because in Uganda English is the national language, I knew… and I would probably say the same thing as you. Because I'm not a big language person. I've studied a lot of language. I've studied my biblical languages and Dutch and now Karamazong and a little bit of Arabic. And my comfort in going over there was English is a national language. I can find translators, and I will be able to, through translators and through my rednecking of trying to like just learn this language, I'm gonna be a blessing, and I'm gonna trust God with it. And so, you know, learning a language is a very humble thing. You become, you have to become like a child, and that's the best thing. When you when you just put yourself in a child way of thinking mentality, then you can go over there and try to babble your way through the language, and you're in a humble position before these people, and they actually enjoy it, right? And so that's what we did. So I, when I got there, I started working on the language right away. Not my forte, but… TV I guess you go over humble and you find a translator, and then like they enjoy it? They actually sit with you through that? JF Yeah, so I can tell you the story of how some of those things work because when we got there in 2019, in November, we went out there with our family of seven kids. We landed. Little did we know, we heard like in China, there's this thing called COVID that's happening, right? We shipped a container. We shipped one storage container to Africa from BC with our some of our belongings in there, and tools, generators, a welder, couches, parts of my library, that kind of stuff, and we got into Uganda, and by I think within three months, February or something that would have been of 2020, our container arrived, and that was a surreal thing just to see this metal box that you shipped off in BC, and now you see it arrive in the middle of East Africa. We're living in a rural savanna land. You know there used to be elephants running around. They've all been you know eliminated and stuff, but there's still giraffe and this and that, and here arrives your container, and your belongings come out of it, and you begin life there. TV You’re like these don’t really belong here, to be honest JF Yeah, within a within a couple weeks of our container arriving, we go into lockdown. TV Oh wow! JF Had that container been a few weeks late, we probably never would have seen our stuff. So we go into lockdown, and now what happened was the other missionary I was working with, he had he and his wife had done a really intensive good work, discipling a number of young men in the community, young boys, homeschooling them sort of and giving them a good discipleship program was called the Timothy Discipleship Program, and they they were going off the field on furlough that summer, and with they're actually going to go earlier, but then COVID happened, and they were asking, "What are you going to do with these boys? Like, are you going to take them, James? Or and I said, well, I didn't come to Africa to homeschool a dozen or more boys. I got to deal with my own kids, and we've never done that before. And we're just trying. I got to try and learn this language. I got a church to take care of. We're running a helping to run a clinic. We're doing discipleship. We're doing funerals. We're doing all kinds of stuff. So I said we can't take care of these, we can't homeschool these kids, which was fine. So all these kids went off to their boarding schools. But within three weeks of the lockdown happening, all schools in Uganda were closed, and they remained closed for two years. I think people tell me it's one of the longest lockdowns in the whole world. Well, because we had we're living in the middle of nowhere, all these young people who would have been in a boarding school down country somewhere, an hour or so away, they all came home back up to the bush where we were living. TV Oh wow! JF And so you have 1000s of kids doing nothing, and so I took those guys, and I, I thought, what we're going to do is I have to learn language, I have to learn the culture, I have to preach a sermon every Sunday. We're trying to do evangelism in the community – reach, bring Christ. So how am I going to do all of this? So I said, “I'm going to just take these dozen guys, and they're just going to go with me and do whatever I do. They're coming with.” So we're going to write sermons together, and I'm going to teach hermeneutics and homiletics and exegesis and history and geography, and I'm gonna explain the text to them. But at the same time, I'm gonna be learning from them because we're gonna be doing this in Karamazong, in their language. So I had a big white, I had a pavilion outside my house, an open air area with a big whiteboard, and we worked on things together. So we were all learning, and it was really neat because I got to actually understand what they understood and what they didn't understand. So I wasn't just standing up front on Sunday and grabbing my old sermons that I had preached years ago and not really knowing how this was going to be received. And the beautiful thing was, is they actually really helped me to write sermons. And then at the end, you know, they also had a message, and when they were translating for me on Sunday, they knew where this sermon was going, right? TV Oh, that's cool. That probably helps a lot. JF And they also were able to take these messages out into their own villages that they were coming from under the other acacia mango trees, and there they would bring God's word. So we reached, you know, many many people during that during that time, and these guys were really – they were trained, they were, you know, raised up in their communities that they came from as, you know, leaders. And so that was just a kind of a summary statement of how we kind of try to do a lot of things by just working together every day. TV Wow. So does that did that help expedite your language learning and cultural learning? JF It did, yeah. And I'm not a lot of that stuff hasn't stuck anymore, but I could still, you know, sing some of the songs. My wife and I are like, what was the word for this again? TV Did you ever become fluent in it? JF Oh no, no. The thing is, like, when you only have four years and you're going straight to work, you really need like a year that's totally dedicated to language. And I wasn't given that, and I was fine with that because we knew, like, when we signed up for this, we said our oldest is, you know, around 12 years old, 13 years old at the time. So we know we're going to sign up for a four-year term, so that by the time we get off the field, they can finish up with high school, and we need to be able to bring our kids back and acclimatize them back to North American lifestyle. So we signed up as of on a four-year term, and we did say like, well, maybe at four years we'll stop and reconsider and do another term. But we, you know, we're really thankful for the decision we made. TV Is that a pretty healthy way to do that? Like to commit? I mean, not not that four years is short by any means. It's an entire entire high school career, but is that pretty typical? JF That’s a good question. Like, I think you with the OPC, what they do is they have they have a view of long-term missions, but missionaries don't always have to be long-term. Ordinarily, it's a four-year term, and then that's up for review within your own team that you're in. So the mission team that we were part of on the field, there's a number of different families working there. One helping to run a clinic, the other pastor, and then maybe a couple discipleship or a diaconal people there, and then you know some singles that are helping with families, helping with you know medical things. Every four years, you're kind of like up for review within your own team, and they evaluate whether it's good that you're still there. If you need to have a break, or for yes, for the team for you to move on. So, yeah. TV Is that like is the work mostly – were you doing most of it, or your was your wife pretty heavily involved? JF Yeah, my wife was focused on keeping our seven kids alive, which is not an exaggeration. But yeah, she was focused on homeschooling and just daily running the home, which was more than a full time job. For example, we had two women that would come to our house every day just to wash our laundry by hand. And then and those two women they each had a number of kids, so we were supporting two families just by having her clothes washed, so my wife actually learned Karamazong better than I did. She was working with those Karamazong ladies who spoke zero English, so she did an amazing job just getting to know them and ministering to them, and then when we got when we got to Karamoja, the needs are so great there. There's so much hunger, akaro as they would call it, that we could have, you know, many people just standing in front of our gate in the morning, begging. So you know, like the Bible story, the rich man and Lazarus. Well, we were the rich man, and we had Lazarus at the gate. And the question was, how do we handle that, right? How do you, how do you deal with that? And our team, we had like half a dozen different, or four or five different families there, and everyone had a bit of a different idea of how to handle, how to live in a real, in a culture of serious needs and a lot, and a very begging culture too. And so my wife would have a lot of requests while I was out for help, you know. people needing food, kids with ear infections, kids with malaria begging for money so that they can go to the clinic for this and that, and that became very that's a very stressful thing because you don't know what the truth is, and many of the locals are looking at you. You're being tested to see what you will do. So if you have a kind and generous heart, you'll just feed that, and you'll have more people at the gate the next day. So what do you do? TV Did that did that create unsafety there? Like, was were they dangerous ever? JF No, no, they weren't. They weren't very. They weren't dangerous. They could be really rude, and with their begging, but like there were times we helped for a while in different ways, and you know we'd have there'd be some a mother who's had like a sick child, or you're very impoverished, so you maybe give them some food, and you're thinking you're doing a good thing, right? And then you find out through other missionaries, or maybe through your laundry ladies who know what's going on in the community, that this person is actually just selling the food at the corner and buying alcohol, buying booze, and getting drunk, and her kids are still malnourished. So you just realize like we don't really know. We think we're doing good, but we don't always know what's really going on. So that was a big challenge, and we had a lot of different ideas on our team about how to handle that question, and that was part of our wrestling. You know, for a good part of our time, they're like, "What should we be doing this?” And at a certain point, what we realized was that we were not helping the situation and what we were doing, and what we needed to do was we all as missionaries needed to get on the same page and not give. Now that might seem really weird, but not give at our gate. And so you can imagine our mission. It's like a chain link fence compound of five acres or something with half a dozen homes on it, and people are coming to your gate every day playing trick or treat. And some people give, some people don't, and it's an exhausting thing. And what we realized is we had to get on the same page and try to give to the local church that we were trying to plant, Nakalay Presbyterian Church, and give to what we called the Mercy Committee, and that was a group of volunteers from within the Church of Karamajung, and they managed that. And so when people came to us, we said, "You have to go to the church. They meet on Fridays at right after lunch, and you can go make your request to them.” And when that happened, it shut down so much of the begging, and it also put power into the local church and into the local diaconate to give. And those are the people who knew what was happening on the ground and knew, you know, where mercy was needed and where you know other actions were needed instead of mercy, you know. So, and what happened from that was we actually built up, you know, a functioning diaconate within the local church. TV Right. Yeah, I guess that's so hard to know from your standpoint. And then it's also like all the funds you're giving and all the all the resources you have are all donated, or they're all they're coming from somewhere. JF Yeah, and we would be giving like just out of our own personal, you know, you know, my 20 bucks or whatever that I have, I'll go help this person, you know, and that, but yeah, it is very challenging. But we realize that we're often getting in the way of, you know, by our own generosity and our own the mercy of our own heart. But it's really important to think about your methodology and how, you know, that mission had been doing this for 20 years, but until we got there, there was no real functional diaconate in the church because everyone was the missionaries were kind of doing what was right in their own eyes, right?\ TV What did your work look like after you had that initial time, or were you basically on lockdown for the majority of your tenure? JF Yeah, those two years it was under lockdowns that would change. My wife would tell you that there was a point during lockdown where she hadn't been off our compound. She didn't go out for six months. We when we knew lockdown was happening, we went down to the city and I bought a huge gunny sack full of brown beans and another huge gunny sack of rice. I'm like, okay, this will keep my family alive, right? And we stocked up on food. And then during another point of the lockdown, we weren't allowed to drive our vehicles. You could only have one person. Only certain people could even be on the road… TV Really? JF …and it wasn't us. So that was that was really stressful. It didn't last long, but you didn't know how long it was going to last. Of course, you weren't allowed in some points like travel between various counties or districts. So that was really those were kind of if you thought about it too much, kind of scary, really scary. But we trusted in the Lord for that, and just kept working, kept serving in the community, and we had enough work to do there. We'd go up the mountain. There's a big volcanic mountain, Mount Kadam, by us, over 10,000 feet up, and we go up on the plateaus below it and camp up there, and you know, tell people about the Lord Jesus and take our ministry discipleship team up there. And yeah, it was a it was a very actually a very beautiful time. Could be stressful, but we got to see people growing in Christ, and yeah, I look back at it with a lot of, I miss it, you know. TV Yeah, was most of the work done in the in the town in the communities, or was it a lot of that like nomadic villages? JF So when you think of you know when you think of rural, when you think in in North America, when you think rural, you think low density a low density population, more depending on the area, but in an ancient anthropology, rural could be quite densely populated because everyone's living off their land, a few acres that they have, and so there's a lot of there can be a lot of people, you know, 1000s and 1000s of people in all these villages spread out because they all have their animals like Jacob and Esau and Lot and Abraham, and so you have your animals, and you move them out during the day onto the grasslands where there's grass, and then at night you bring them in. So you can because of that you have people that are spread out all over with their animals to the grazing lands that they're in, and also they need to have water. So you know it's often the towns are built around the water sources because that's what they need for themselves, but also for their livestock. TV But then not no infrastructure, I guess, or no like there's nothing there. JF Not a lot, no, not a good job with mud huts and our mission. Years ago, I drilled many, many wells all through the area. So that, of course, like creates more stability and people don't have to move around as much because there's you know water all the time in this one spot, right? Like these semi-nomadic people had largely stopped being nomadic. They were no longer moving like this tribe at one point, hundreds of years ago, come from Ethiopia and moved through Kenya and South Sudan and found their way into Uganda. They're an ilotic tribe, so yeah, basically they had stopped moving, and now it's like, what do we do? This is the struggle now, like with modernization and you know land titles and stuff. What are you going to do with your life? TV Is there still like leadership and stuff then? JF Oh yeah, like there's tribal elders and all that, but they're thinking the old way, right? They're thinking the old way, like Jacob and Esau yet, and on the move cattle rating, and people are realizing we need to modernize. We need to. Our kids need to get education. You know, we need to figure out how we can survive and just live on this plot of land. Now, how are we going to do that? TV Do they have technology? JF There are. There's a power line that runs through in this in the local towns in the market centers. You know they'll have, you know they have their electricity, and you can buy your cell phones there. They're cell phone tower towers, so you know the internet's coming in, and movies and everything from the West is coming in. So that's it's a changing like every few every few years, you can just tell like things are changing there. The young people are changing, and the old ways are going away. And that's a real opportunity right now. Is we really need to get in there with the word, with the gospel, and because this is a tribe that never, that always resisted change, and now this next generation is changing, right? And if we can be there with the gospel and really warn them, like you know, the what the Western way of life is not the gospel, you know, we have to bring Christ to these people. TV Yeah, right. Well, that's true, eh? Because it feels as if you're doing them a favor by modernizing or bringing technology or bringing what we have in the Western world. Because it seems on the surface so much better, but there's so much weakness to that too. Like if you just if you gave them everything that we have in terms of technology and affluence, it's not like you're giving them any hope. JF That’s not our hope, right? That's what we have to teach them. TV Is that hard for them to grasp? Like, do they? I guess on any more foreign mission field, like, do they feel like when you show up, you're coming with an agenda for a certain culture or a certain way? JF I mean, yeah, for them, often when they see missionaries come, and they've seen them come for hundreds of years or 100 years, let's say, depending on the place, they've seen it all before, right? Often, we're not actually the first ones there, you know. Other groups have been through there. All different denominations have gone through, and often short term, like someone's here for a month, someone teaches them how to farm or whatever it is, someone drills a well, then the well breaks, you know, and so the, you know, when they see us, often they look at us as a short term, a short term visitor, who they need to try to push the ATM buttons on to get the money or get something out of. TV They're sort of looking to exploit you a bit. JF Yeah. So you'll see, you'll see like groups go in, build, build a school, and they can show that back home. You know, we built a school over here, and then you find out, well, it's not really a school. You know, someone took all the iron sheets off the roof, and it went to the guy's brother-in-law, and or someone else is living there, and it's not really, it's not really functional, right? So, yeah, there is a lot of, I don't know how to put it, but a lot of wasted work that's done on the field, and a lot of, a lot of times where like we had, we had like the World Food Program, Save the Children, these organizations, and some other ones. I don't remember all the names, but they'd often like give food right outside our mission in our church at our church compound, and so you'd see lineups of 100 or more people, you know, hundreds of people lined up in front of our church under the big acacia trees, and you know the trucks would be there and they'd be handing out, you know, these granola bar type things for nutrition bars with peanut butter and whatever it is…. and our clinic used to do that too in a various ways. But then once you're in the community, once you live there for 20 years, you begin to know these people, and so when these NGOs come out and do this, you find out in the community that they're testing, these NGOs come out and say you have to qualify as malnourished to get this this food. So these moms will stop feeding their kids for a week. TV Oh man. JF Pin them right down, and so and then they'll check them and go yeah they're malnourished, and then they'll qualify to get a jug of oil or whatever it is, right? TV Oh wow! JF So you see some of these things, and you're it can just leave you really discouraged, you know, jaded, and realizing like we really have to know what's going on the ground, right? We do short term things. It feels good, but what is this really doing? So at one point early on, I went up to the main government district town, and there I met with the president of Uganda has a man in every county that speaks directly to him. It's like the king's man, basically. And so I went up to that man, and he was from a different tribe. And they always put what I'm told is they always take that guy who's in that position – he's never of that tribe. Uganda has many, many tribes, so they don't put the same guy of that tribe in there. They always have someone else from another tribe speaking to the president for this local. So I went to this guy, and I don't know anything. So I said, "Like, how can we be working here? How do we help these people, the Karamazon?” And they said, “These people are beggars. Don't give them anything. They're already ruined by all the people that have come through here to try to help them.” TV Really? JF Now, I just heard that, and I'm like, well, I don't know what to do with that. That seems extreme, but, but a lot of people who've served there for a long time really can get really jaded, and this man who wasn't Ugandan himself said that. TV Wow! JF So our challenge is our challenge was how do we reach these people with Christ and love them and seek to do justice but love mercy and walk humbly with God and the big thing is when you're in these places, you're really, really tested. Your heart is tested because you get used, you get lied to, your stuff gets stolen. Right? People treat you as an ATM machine. It's like I didn't come here just to like be your ATM machine or to be the World Food Program with 20 people lined up at my gate every day. That's not sustainable. We wanted to bring more than just some stuff to you guys. That's what we're kind of sick of in the West is stuff. But how do we do that? And so, to walk humbly with God through all these times, like to realize we have received mercy from Christ, and that we cannot be proud, and we cannot become calloused or jaded, and sometimes we naturally do. So we have to keep going back to the Lord, and it's easy not to love mercy after a while too, because you can get so frustrated. These people, and yeah, it's easy. It's easy to despair. It's very easy to get, to despair over there at just the impossible task of changing people, and then you realize, well, that's not my job, actually. I have to go back to the Lord, and what these people need most of all is Jesus. He's the bread of life, and one of my teammates said to me, “James, before you came here, these people lived here for hundreds and hundreds of years, and they lived here without you, and God somehow took care of them, the poor you will always have, and we're here to bring the living water that won't stop flowing and the bread of life that will truly nourish, and that's what's going to change”, and so that's what we really tried to, to focus on and not get distracted by just becoming an aid organization, you know. TV Right. Yeah. Has that changed the way you look at your ministry now? Like I'm trying to think of I'm trying to trying to put myself in your shoes, I guess in in that spot, and eventually you just yeah you're kind of standing on the shoulders of the people before you in a way, but you're also inheriting all the unintentional issues they created. JF Yeah, like for example, like last week I preached on the Beatitude blessing. are the merciful, for they shall receive mercy. And one of the things we learned, we had when we're when you're bringing Christ to people, they're receiving the mercy of Christ, and they have to learn to understand what their identity is in Jesus. So that means, I mean, we all get that, but I always say they would say to me, “Pastor, we're poor, we have nothing”, and I would tend to agree with that, but that's wrong, right? It's true, but it's also wrong because in Christ, I would say to them, "What do you have?” “Well, we have no money, we have no food, we have no education, we have no work.” I said, "Yes, that's true, but you have, you have one another? You have Jesus. You're forgiven and the Christian life.” This is one of the big things that I learned is experientially that Christian discipleship. Christian discipleship often when I you disciple someone, you say I led this person to the Lord by God's grace, and that's fine. But Christian discipleship is never just an individualistic thing. Christian discipleship is always onto a team. What that means is, an example of that is, if I teach someone to dribble and shoot a basketball, I haven't made them a basketball player. I have to coach them onto a team, and we have to, I had to think about with the guys that I was training, I can't just teach them the Bible and what marriage is, and you know, get rid of the polygamy thing and don't steal anymore and don't get drunk. I had to teach them how to be on the team in the body of Christ, because the body of Christ is an active thing as well. It's not just well, we're in the body of Christ, we just go to church. But how do we disciple people onto a team? And because the reality is, the Christian life is against a team, the world of flesh and the devil. So if you just disciple someone and they're just an individualist Christian who has no function in the church, they're going to get on the basketball court, right? And they're going to face the opposition, and they've never learned how to run a defense or an offense or play together or defend one another or protect each other or encourage one another, and they're going to get destroyed. So what we want to do, going back to my guys saying, "Well, we have nothing, Pastor.” I'd say “No, don't believe that. That's a lie. That's a lie from the devil that you have nothing. You have Christ, right? You have a team. You have one another in the whole community.” Everyone stealing each other's cows, chickens, food, emptying their granaries, murdering one another. It's horrible, dads who are totally delinquent, just impregnating women, and it's a complete disaster, right? And I said, “You guys, you love one another. You might not have anything physically, but you can go to the neighbor. You can help. O her garden, you can watch each other's property so stuff doesn't get stolen. And when we come to church, we're looking out for each other, we're praying for one another, we're caring for each other, and that's the body of Christ.” And that's part of our great witness. Our witness isn't just our individual thing, but it's also the team, just like you didn't win the playoffs, but you got the sportsmanship award. You know, like our churches, our missions should get the sportsmanship award, so to speak. And going back to that idea of blessed are the merciful, for they will receive mercy. I say, you know, every kingdom has its own currency. Every you imagine if you're serving the kingdom of self, your kingdom has its own dollar bill, and it's your face on it; depending if you're doing great, your nose is up in the air, and you flip the backside over, and there's all your works, and they're amazing what you did. Or if your kingdom of self is depressed and lousy, you look terrible on the front of it, and you have you have no value, and you can live out of the currency of your kingdom, and that's either your pride or your despair. And I said to our guys, like, “are you living out of that, or are you going to live under out of the currency of the kingdom of King Jesus?” And that that is grace, that is forgiveness, that is love, that is considering others better than yourselves, that is laying down your life for one another, all of those things, and that's our riches in Christ. And so, even if you're an impoverished situation, you're rich in Christ. And actually, when you when you work together as a team, and you're rich in Christ, often you get somehow your material well being often improves as well as you care for one another and walk in God's commandments, right? So that was kind of if we can work at that ground level, spiritual level, seeking first the kingdom of God. What does Jesus say? “Seek first the kingdom, and all these other things will be added unto you.” And so that is that heart central place where we have to work, and when they can get that vision, you know that's the road to spiritual prosperity, and by God's grace, you know material prosperity as well. TV Wow. Yeah, I mean that hits here too, like you said for that sermon. I mean, thinking of ourselves as a community, I mean, definitely is different than thinking about ourselves individually. JF Yeah, and the other thing with that too is like, if you have your two bills, one from the kingdom of self, so to speak, and one from Jesus' kingdom, what do you use when you, which bill do you use when you give mercy to people? Right? Do you give it out of the kingdom of self, out of your works, which often then is manipulative or based on, I'll give this to you, but you give back, or this inflates my ego, my kingdom, right? Or maybe in your life you've really messed up, you're really depressed with your life because it's you've just screwed up so much, and you say I have nothing to give, right? And then you don't give, you don't give of – not talking financially even – like you just give your whole life. And when we're living out of our life in Christ, out of His riches, that's where true mercy flows. And it's not legalistic mercy. It's not conditional. It's a beautiful thing, and that's part of our witness, you know. And that's what the world needs. That's what Karamoja needs. They need it. They need to taste and see that God is good, and that comes through his people, often comes through his church, and the church is you know we call it all the time the body of Christ and that's true, and it it's through the hands and feet of the body of Christ that the world gets to taste Jesus in a way, you know. TV Yeah, man. So that, I guess, too though that point, like the hands and feet: how do you think about that? Like, obviously, you went out and did it, and you've had this on your heart since you were a kid. How do you encourage younger people, or even ministers that you talk to now, to consider the world, the world mission, like to go abroad? Who do you encourage? I guess, and then how do you encourage them? How do you think about that? Is it just a blanket everyone should think about this, or do you think about it a little bit, you know, more nuanced than that? I guess. JF Yeah, it's a good question. I'm still, I still, now that I'm on this side of it in the West, I think about foreign missions, and I think about exactly that question. How do we go about doing that? Promoting foreign missions, doing foreign missions, and well, it's one word my congregation always hears now is we have to do it as a team because we're a team on this side, and our missionaries have to be a team on the field, so just to back up, like sometimes in you know missionaries they can go to they can go wherever they are wherever they go and they want to teach like a Presbyterian Reformed Church government – elders ruling the church and all of that, so they go over there and they want to set up that church government, but the practical way in practice, what they do is they teach one thing and then embody another by being a little hope over there. They've been serving right. It's their mission. They've been doing this for 30 years. It's their gig. It's their school. It's their church. They're the boss. They've helped everybody. They've saved everybody's lives, and that's you know that can be very dangerous and very intoxicating. And one of the things I learned, I'll get back to your question, but we helped build a, we built a soccer field in where we were living, and the locals we play soccer with them, and they'd have big tournaments at Christmas, and they would jokingly call me, they'd say it in this way, “Pastor, Pasta, you are Ronaldo, you are Ronaldo,” and so we would joke with that. I am not Ronaldo, but I didn't want to play with them because they played, they were very dangerous players, get injured very easily. But it was all we all had name soccer names for each other, football names as they called it. And I said, "Okay, what happens if I on the ministry team am Rinaldo? When you get the ball, who will you pass it to? You give it to me, then I score, and I'm your hero, right? So what happens often with our missionaries is they become Ronaldo. Now, when Ronaldo leaves, what team do you have left, right? Ronaldo hasn't built a team; it's just about him”, and I we use that illustration with our guys, and they got it. And I said, I'm leaving in a year, and I can't be Ronaldo. I don't want to be Ronaldo. And when I am, I need to repent of being the star guy. It's not about me, right? It's about Jesus. And so, because we have to build, we have to build Christ's church, and that means we have to be able to get out of the way. And you think about Paul saying, like some are saying, "I'm of Paul, I'm of Cephas, I'm of this guy,” and that is really, really destructive to missions. And I think, and that's one of the dangers, actually, of long-term missions. So people talk about long-term missionary. That's a good thing, but we have to be really, really careful. We don't build our missions around one guy out on the field, right? TV Interesting. JF Be careful with that. We have to, and what that means is, in our sending churches, to go back to like, how do we send missionaries? Well, we have to send as a team as well, right? We have to have a long term vision for a particular field, and we got to care for the ones that we send over there. Sometimes pastors in the West have our time where they feel like they're not even being cared by their own church well, you know. And they're the people around them; they see them every Sunday. So you can imagine if a pastor's experienced that in a local church here in North America, and it's hard to be known and loved and cared for and understood. You know what's going on, this and that. Now you take that person and you move them to the other side of the world. How are you going to care for that person? TV Yeah. JF Right? It's really challenging to. Do it well, and it goes back to the very beginning of our talk. When you, when you live in a on the foreign field, under intense pressures like a war zone, right, with huge stresses for both you, for the husband and the wife and kids, you can grow really weird, like the plant growing in the pot, right? It's huge pressures, right? So how do you, how do our sending churches really understand what's happening on the field and care for that to do it well? TV Yeah, like we, how do you keep tabs on? Because I mean, I guess the typical way is like you read the newsletter, and it's like, well, you'll you don't get a lot of, yeah, you don't know if your missionary is becoming a Rinaldo out there based on a newsletter. JF No, and the thing is, like, newsletters, even in the Bible, they don't tell us everything. Paul's missionary journeys, they don't tell us like what happened with his team, Paul had a team, but we don't know the details. So, but it's really important to try to think about the person or the family that you're sending. How are you going to care for them? Well, right. And I really appreciated the Orthodox Presbyterian Church because they put around us, we were a part of a local team on the field that cared for us well, and we try to care for each other. We're all sinners, and we're all stressed out and go bonkers sometimes, and you have to work with one another. Really, really challenging. But and then they also had a committee of people who understood missions, understood the stresses, and really cared for and loved us well. And that was why when they first called us to go out there, and I saw the infrastructure that was there for care, I thought, “okay. I think by God's grace, we can do this as a family and survive”, so to speak. You know, and do well. You know, not without challenges, not without stress, not without danger, but so yeah, I think your question is like, how do we send now? I think we really have to work together on the North American side or wherever we're coming from, and we have to also talk to other churches that are working in that area, so we're not duplicating work, and we need to think about in our in the foreign settings that we're working we have to really under do good leg work on the ground, know what's know the history, know what's been done, know the scoundrels in the area who've like used the mission, other missionaries that have come through. Like, really, don't go in there naive because you'll be taken out. TV Yeah. How do you think about that? Because, like, I guess, like, when we say the words like foreign mission or world mission, like, we think go to all nations, so that all nations hear about Christ. Like, I guess right away in the West, you think, well, the West has heard. Let's go to somewhere they don't have never, you know. It used to be, I guess, in the 60, 70, 50, 60, 70’s, maybe it was like they've never seen a white man before, like that kind of idea. But now it's maybe they've been touched. But I mean, there's a bit of a difference there in our minds. I think between people who have never heard or people who are part of this, part of a culture that has experienced missionaries over the last say 50, 60, 70 years. So how do you pick a mission field, and then do you, I guess, as a Reformed missionary, would you enter a field that's been dominated by Roman Catholics historically, or even you mentioned like setting up a certain type of church governance? Like, how specifically should we be targeting these areas, or should we be like, well, they have something that's, you know, good enough, I guess, or like close enough to what we would hope for? And then, how much, I guess, in the field, even when you get there, how much crossover is there working with other denominations or people who have been there before, other organizations like NGOs even are sometimes religious-esque. JF Yeah. So like there's plenty of people working in these foreign fields who used to be you know missionaries of sorts, and now are just working for NGOs, doing wells, healthcare, farming things. But very few people are trying to plant churches. TV Really. JF When I think about missions, when I think about the call of Christ, we can think about three aspects to the missionary work. One is, first of all, discipleship, working with people, bringing Christ to them so that they are saved, right? But if that's all you do, there's plenty of people who said, you know, I led you know these five kids to the Lord, right? But that's not far enough because we want to bring them onto the team, which is the body of Christ, and so we need to get the church functioning. So Paul tells Timothy to put elders in every town, you know. So that's church formation, and then out of from church formation, and you need church government to have that because you don't really have a church without church government because we're planting local churches and this is how people are discipled in the church and then from that point, so the first one discipleship, second forming churches with government in decency and good order right, and then third is what I would say is church nurturing. So part of what we can do, you know, maybe once we in a given area, there's enough indigenous people who know the Lord. They can do the first one. They can go out up the mountain. They know the language. They know the people. You know, we’re not Hudson Taylor. They are the guys who are hitting that spot, And once we've once people have been trained in leadership, you can have churches that learn good governance and the means of grace, preaching the word of sacrament. But part of our mission work can also be helping to nurture or train up churches or denominations or presbyteries, and that that I think is that's a good thing that we can be a part of. Like to look at areas, how can we promote building up that that knowledge base? Stuff like Christian counseling, just having a stronger biblical theology on all the doctrines of grace. You know, those kinds of things are, I think, are really needed. Often the church is an inch deep and a mile wide, or people have people have no real vision of the local church, they just have, you know, a walk with the Lord, but they don't have a walk with His people, right? TV That's a really good way to put it – an inch deep and a mile wide. Because how does that, like, that's the kind of feeling I get when I'm when I'm talking about world mission. It's like the inclination is to go that inch deep and mile wide, like you're like let's just reach everybody, because like, but I guess that's not, yeah. Do you think that that's not necessarily the way we should do it? JF Oh, we need to plant, we need to plant churches, which is not the invisible church. Paul didn’t plant invisible churches. He said to the church in Ephesus, or the church in Colossae, or to the Corinthian church. He planted local churches with real people on the ground with real names. They weren't invisible people, and they had you know visible manifestations of the fruit of the spirit, and they had visible manifestations of the fruit of evil as well, right? So we need to. that that's our calling, and that's that's a hard calling to focus there. That's a long term, a long term vision that's needed. So, but it's exciting, you know, really, really exciting. TV Yeah, and dangerous. And I guess in some ways, un not unfruitful, but un- Yeah, not a lot of thankfulness in that, or if you don't see fruit right away, it can be really unrewarding, or you know, just tough to work through. JF You know it is one of the most rewarding things to see people come to Christ and begin to love their brothers and sisters who they hated, and begin to forgive their enemies, and have them sitting in church, the wind is blowing through. The cows are walking by, and then you have Lord's Supper with them. And I remember one lady, her name was Joyce. She came to the Lord. I think she had like 13 or more kids. One of her boys was probably murdered, and just a horrible, challenging life. And she came to faith. And the way she said what happened, how she described being a Christian, is like “God has put, God has changed my face. God has put joy on my face. He's changed, changed me. He's given me a smile”, and I thought that is actually so true. Like when we walk through the village, often we can see who the Christians are by their face. TV Wow. JF And to see people loving and forgiving one another – that's the body of Christ, right? That, um, that is an incredible, um, it's an incredible witness, and it's so rewarding, and just experiencing love in the body of Christ in a context of so much hate and violence, I like the stark contrast between light and darkness is, was so strong there. Yeah, there's hard things, but you get to see beautiful things. So that that is so rewarding, and yeah, I love those people. I still pray for my old church over there. TV Yeah, that's amazing. Yeah, you could definitely feel that, you know, yeah. I guess I gotta, we should probably wrap this up at some point, but I could talk to you all day about these. You can, I love to hear your stories, like Mark Penninga got to walk with you often, you said so it's you know he probably you know excited about all the stories got to hear from you when you were up in BC. But yeah I guess it's kind of a two part question. Like one would be the nations have in many ways kind of come to us in the West. Like there's been tons, especially in Canada, there's been tons of immigration. In a lot of ways, we're not even really living in a, I wouldn't say we're not living in a Western culture. We're living, but the culture is even changing. You can feel even here in in Alberta, which is you know pretty strong native culture to begin with, pretty strong redneck culture, so you can already feel that there's a real disconnect between us as you know Reformed people and the people who are living around us. There's this strong contingence of Middle Eastern, yeah, all sorts of Asian cultures. Like, how do you think about going to those people? And do you think like we should be spending more time in our backyard? Is that a world mission in the same sense, or is it more important to reach out to those who don't have local churches, at least around who are also active in that work? Yeah, I guess that's the first part of my question. But let's just hit that first. JF You know when I came back here, you go to a church, and that your church has a whole bunch of elders and deacons, and you have you know ladies fellowship or whatever your church is doing and youth group, and you realize how stacked your church is, how blessed you have it. You have so many people who are believers who have gifts, and then you have other churches around you. You know you might not totally agree with everything, but they're gospel churches, and all of our churches here in all of our communities can be reaching those people. But when you go to other parts of the world, there's actually no church there, right? That's where we were. There was no one there, and these people were going to die without knowing Christ. We went to places where no one even knew the name of Jesus, so an actual, basically an unreached people group in many ways. So those places we need to work, and in those places, there's also many places there's a spiritual hunger that, like we often don't know here. Here we have a lot of indifference to the word. There's places where people are so hungry for the word. We would go up on this one mountain, and they would say, “Why haven't you been here for a number of months? Where have you been? We need to hear the word of God”, you know, and so that, yeah, I think we need to like really think about reaching the unreached. Now that might be in our own community, and we can do that as churches, but we also have to have a vision for the world around us, and we are uniquely equipped with our resources to do that. And we have to kind of organize ourselves for it too. I think of during COVID when COVID ended in Uganda, we had been, we went to the schools that were opening up, and these are public government schools. And we went to the teach, and the people are largely from those various tribes that teach up there. They have, they have a respect for the church, and so we went up, we went to these schools, and there could be like a couple 1000 kids out of school, and we would go there and we would say, "Can we come and come on Tuesdays? Let's say and bring God's word?” And they'd say, "Hey, yeah, you come, but you be serious. You come at 10 o'clock. I'm telling you, don't be late.” Like okay, and you have like half an hour. So okay, yeah, they've totally bossed you around, and okay, well we'll do that. So we show up at not at 10 o'clock. We'll show up at like at 8:30 in the morning, drive up there with the Land Cruiser, and this is like a building out on the prairie. There's a couple big trees, just grasslands. You'd expect an elephant or a lion to come out of the grass, you know nothing else around, but there's kids everywhere, and they're in this you know concrete type building, and there's like one well at the borehole or whatever they call it, and you show up, and the teacher comes out. “Hey, you are here, you wait, let me bring the children. You go by the tree.” So they all come out at 8:30 and they'll let you teach the whole day, the whole morning. Wow! All these kids. So we got to do that, and the guys that we trained after COVID, they went to these schools, and we were reaching 1000s of kids for Christ. And the guys that I got to train – they are now, you know, bringing the word to these places. So the story of the OPC's mission work, it's still ongoing, but these kids first heard the gospel as young children, and the women who went to the woman missionaries who went into the village who knew the language, taught the basic Bible stories. They were raised up under the Word, and then they were later discipled. And now they're, 20 years later, one is being ordained as a pastor, and others are leaders in the church, bringing God's Word, and they're seeking to reach the next generation. It that has been like a 25 year process, with many people involved in it. And yeah, we praise the Lord that we got to be a part of that wonderful little story, and we, of God's redemption in Karamoja and the building up of his of his church, and we're seeing now this new generation really seeking to take leadership. And now we're in this place where we're now trying to more – well, I'm no longer there anymore – but those who are remaining in this more nurturing stage, not first time reaching the lost or church establishment that's still being worked on, but now we're trying to get into a more church nurturing stage as a mission, and actually looking for more opportunities. And there's many more opportunities throughout that whole area for missionaries to go, you know. TV Wow, it's cool. Do they readily those young guys who are now church leaders? Do they readily adopt that mission mindset of reaching out and pushing the gospel? JF They’re like a lot of us, there's some that really are seeking to do it, and then there's others who are lukewarm, and then there's some that have fallen away, right? So some of the guys that have fallen away… Actually, two Sundays ago, I got a letter from Africa, and I was off my pulpit that day, and the visiting pastor, who was a member in my church back in Telkwa, became a pastor, and he preached in my church, which was really special. He preached on the prodigal son in Panoka here, and that next day I got a letter from Africa. Sunday at Nakale Presbyterian Church, and one of the boys, now a man, came home from a life of being a prodigal son. The very next day, I got up, and he stood up in church at the end, and he said, "I am Judas. I am Jonah. I am the prodigal son. I, Pastor James, and all these guys – they taught me, and I stole from the mission. I stole the mission bicycles. I lied. I cheated. I forsook Christ”, and he went to the far country, quite literally. Went down country and lived a life apart from Christ, and he repented and he came back two Sundays ago. His name is Chegem Mark, and I pray for Chegem. You can pray for him. Anyone listening, I'd love it, but yeah, we part of nurturing the church is yeah, pray that the church can keep growing. And so some of these guys, they've been wayward and they're coming back and they've tasted the world, and the world is ultimately poverty. Might taste, be rich. Might be have a rich taste, but in the end, it leaves what is bitter and empty. And he came back to our church impoverished, but coming to Christ. And the pastor, Pastor Julius, on Sunday of Nakale Presbyterian Church, he asked Chagam, "Do you know how the prodigal son ends?” And Chagam couldn't remember. I'm like, "Why don't you know that?” But anyways, he couldn't remember. And the pastor, the people in the church, and the pastor-they reminded him. They said he got a ring on his finger, a new coat, and everyone said, "The father said, 'Rejoice with me, for my son that was lost has been found”, and that's the gospel. And so our guys over there, they're still learning. They're still struggling. They're tempted by the world. They're tempted by prosperity with poverty, and poverty's really hard. It's really discouraging. Takes the life out of you and it tests you. But my one of my spiritual sons last week that was lost came home, so my heart's still over there. TV That's amazing. JF You don't you don't leave that, and I think of Paul too. You read the New Testament letters in his heart for all the churches, and I have a little taste of that. And I really, yeah. I want them, I want that church to be strong for Christ. TV Is that difficult for you now? With this was this was kind of my last question I had for you. Like, do you feel like we get caught up here in our Western world with things that, for you personally, that feel less meaningful? Like we all get spun up with the media and you know the culture wars in the West, and obviously those are, I mean, we have podcasts on about issues like this all the time, and they're obviously important problems. But does that feel to you like at times just a little less important because you have seen what these other parts of the world are going through, like your heart is still over there a little bit, and you feel for these people in a different way than you know... Does some of these arguments and things in the West seem a little more trivial to you? JF Yeah, I think in the West we've lost. I don’t want to be overly judgmental, but… TV No, do it. That's what we're here for. JF We, um, we don't want to do missions because we don't want to suffer. We want to be comfortable and we want to be safe, and that's really bad. The Apostle Paul didn't do missions because it was safe. He did it to make people safe in Christ, and we have lost in the West largely our theology of suffering for Christ. We have lots of position papers in our denominations, on justification and all these things, whatever it is, it's all good. But to say, do we have a biblical theology of suffering, and are we embracing that for Christ? Right. When we came back from Africa here, everyone says, “We're so glad your home's safe”, and I understood that. We went through a pretty massive... we were attacked in Africa at one point, and we were ambushed, I was beaten with hammers all over my body and went through like a very significant PTSD trauma episode through that. TV Wow. JF I had one of those Pauline beatings, which I don't recommend anyone to have, but that was a really significant part of our time there, about halfway through. We got to, in many different ways, what Paul says to the Colossians: fill up the sufferings of Christ for His church. And I didn't choose that. My wife didn't choose it. My kids didn't. But it was part of our journey there, and the Lord used it to really show to the rest of the body there that church in Nakale a lot of different things, and also to teach us a lot of different things. But we were there to bring Christ to His people, and we're willing to suffer for Christ for His people. At one point, we nearly lost one of our kids out there through sickness, and I mean, this is all like huge topics. TV I was gonna say, we could talk for another five hours on this. Yeah, but it JF Yeah, but it was, you know, after we came back up to Karamoja, I was really, really struggling. It's in the middle of COVID, so under lockdowns in Canada, everything's crazy over here. Trucker convoys and everyone's in their world here, right? But we came up to Karamoja, and this had happened down country, close to the airport. And the people up in Karamoja, they saw that we didn't hightail it out, and we ministered in weakness to these people, and we entered into their poverty, so to speak, and that was a very rich experience. And to not, and just to be really depending on Jesus for health, for strength, for mental health, for courage. Our prayers were different. Some ways I wish I still could pray like I prayed back then. You know, and we come back here, and we're caught up in our own world. We're caught up in our own stuff, in our own busyness, and the world needs Christ, and we gotta, we gotta have a passion for him, you know, passion to pursue him, to be willing to suffer for him, you know, and to count it all joy. Like I think I got a little bit of a taste of that, to see God using our sufferings for Him and getting to grow through it, you know, growing in in perseverance and character and hope and yeah, it's hard to put in, it's hard to put into words all of that. TV I could just feel it in you that it's like, I just don't know. It's strange because it feels as if I can't relate. But you, like we just completed a few.. in our in our men's Bible study here in Calgary, we we've did we've studied Acts, then we studied Romans. Now we did First, and we're in middle of Second Corinthians. There's a lot of that, Paul's endurance through these things comes out, and yet you look at it as someone from the Western world a lot of times, and you don't know what to do with it because the suffering isn't the same, so we say things like, "Well, we're not persecuted in the same way, but you know, we have our own things, and the devil's working here in different ways.” And that's all true, but it's also like we don't… Do you feel like we even know here what that's what suffering is? What does suffering for the gospel mean? I guess it just doesn't mean the same thing. JF Yeah, it's here. I mean, and we have suffering with diseases and cancer, and you know, losses and challenges in our families. You know, at work, it's here. TV Like we suffer, we suffer because of the broken world, but for the gospel? A lot of times I feel like we're very, very comfortable, and… JF Yeah. TV I know personally, there's like a hesitation to, you know, when I was a kid, especially like when you see a presentation from a missionary and you say, "Is that going to be me one day?” And there's a big part of you that says, "That's just a yeah, that doesn't fit into the white picket fence life that everyone's sold here.” JF No, you know, Paul… I think it's in the chapter when he gets to Corinth is that Acts 18? I forget, but he gets there and he's gone through all these beatings, and then the Lord gives him a vision and says, "You won't get beaten in this town. I have many people here.” I don't know how long he was there, off the top of my head, he was there for a couple of years or something, but it's always that passage – pardon the pun – struck me because here Paul has, he's been beaten, you know. He's been left for dead. And I wasn't quite left for dead, but it was bad, you know. And then Paul gets to Corinth, and God says, "No more beatings while you're here.” And I thought, “I would love to have that. God, just tell me for the next while you're safe. You're not going to get beaten.” Right? And Paul got that, and I think that might have been a very special grace to him in that time, as he healed of his wounds, physical wounds. I think for me, it probably took like a year before my pain was gone and my knees and stuff, and psychological things. But guess what happened when Paul left Corinth? He crossed that boundary line, and he knew that promise was now over because he had left Corinth. TV You think Paul would have made that a 25 year ministry? JF Yeah, be a long-term missionary here in Corinth. But he stepped out, and it was for, you know, he was willing. He loved Christ. He wanted to make Christ known, and he wanted to see the church built up, right? He wanted to go to Rome. He wanted to go to Spain. And I think that forward thrust of you know wanting the kingdom of God to abound everywhere has to be that's Christ's mission, and that has to be our mission, our passion. And I think we have to really consider how can we organize ascending churches. How can we raise up our young people for this vision? And even if we're not going, how can we be good senders? How can we pray for churches? How can we, you know, pray for our missionaries? And missionaries aren't just, you know, the pastor, but you can have mission aid people going to support them, young people going, short-term stuff to equip to learn, and the beauty of it is, is you come back here, you can come back to North America, and you see these other people that have moved here, and you get an idea for their world, right? So what I'm discovering now is, you know, I meet Africans in the grocery store, wherever I am, and I can start talking to them about where they're from, and they immediately identify. And you realize, for me now, I realize that what's it like for them to see our world, right? What's it like for all these immigrants in Canada. How are they really looking at Canada? You know, and you ask them that question, like, so how is how is it like here? When you come from like Lagos, Lagos in Nigeria or Abuja or Nairobi or you know, what's it like here? Don't you think it's crazy? And what's Costco? And you start talking, and um, you can throw a little bit of Kiswahili at them or something, and they're like, "Hey, where are you from?” You know. And yeah, I'm finding now like it's really interesting to talk to immigrants here and just to get into their worldview, how they see our Canadian culture, and yeah, it's super interesting. TV Yeah, I guess it helps you mission to them too. Like even here. Man, James, really appreciate this. It's been eye opening. JF For what it’s worth. TV Yeah, all your struggles and everything. Yeah, it's amazing to hear what you went through, and I mean, just the encouragement of to the listeners and everybody to like be intentional about how we send and to consider going to experience the suffering for the name of Christ. JF The yeah, our mission field is right here, though, so we can learn learn here before you go over there. So TV Yeah, well, really appreciate it. Thank you so much for… JF yeah, you're welcome TV …for doing this with us. I have a newfound appreciation and just yeah, it's almost overwhelming to think about. Like you just have to really, really sit with it and ponder what happens overseas. And you know, like you said, we get so busy with our lives here, but don't let that be a reason to not look abroad and to spread the word. JF You know, a year ago, my church here in Panoka allowed me to go back to one guy that I got to teach that had graduated from seminary. His name is Timo, and I went back. I'd gone. I hadn't been there in two years, and I walked into our old house that we lived in, and it was like walking into kind of a haunted house. Our furniture, some of it was still there. Our bed was still there. It was like the body without the soul, without the spirit. TV Oh, wow. JF And, and that team that we left had to rebuild, it kind of collapsed a little bit, and they’re reforming which is good – Rinaldo’s not there anymore, you have to figure it out. TV I was gonna say, you might run into that in Edmonton with McDavid, so… JF Yeah, we won’t go there. But what I want to end with is, I walked through there and I thought it was almost like being in a dream. It was almost a dream. Had we really been here? Did we really do this? How did we do this? Like I looked at the place. I walked into the bedroom where we almost lost our daughter, right? And where she was so sick, and you know, so many memories come back, and so many challenges, and also so many joys, so much laughter. And I asked myself, like, how did we do this? I don't think I could do this again. I don't feel called here, and I realized – it was a special moment – I realized God did this. This wasn't me, right? This was God. God called me. God called our family for that time, and He called us. He called us to where we are now, and it's good. And we're serving Him now, here, we're happily here. We're God's blessing our work. We're building a team, working on the team. But it's the Spirit of God that equips us in our callings wherever we are. And that, to me, was just going back there and seeing that and being reminded of that, it's like God gave us strength for that during that time, and we have to trust Him. My wife, she said, when we went to Uganda, the thing she had to learn to give up was the – not control – she had to learn to give up the illusion of control because we can believe that we've got it, and that's a lie. And coming back here too, we can think we can take that illusion of control back into our hands. We're safe here in Canada. It's like you know. But we're in God's hands. Let's serve Him here with everything that we have, and trust Him, just the same we did over there. And the Spirit will, the Holy Spirit will lead us. And you know, we're obedient. You know, He can really bless that work as we depend on him. TV Yeah, yeah, that's lots to think about and ponder. JF Sorry I gave you too much. TV No, that's a that's a great place to leave it. Thanks everyone for listening. James, again, really appreciate that's gonna give me things to think about for weeks. Yeah, no, that's I'm sure many will. That's an amazing story, and yeah, all the all the best in Panoka and with your work now, and you know God's continued blessing there and in everything that you do. Again, appreciate it. JF Thanks for having us, and thank you for being willing to spread the work of Christ's mission, absolutely. TV Absolutely. From the from the basic comforts of my home, that's the, you know, the challenge here. So, thanks everybody. Outro Thanks for tuning into Real Talk. If this episode inspired you, please share it with a friend so you can continue this conversation in your own life. We encourage you to send us your feedback or let us know who you would like to hear on the podcast. You can email us at real [email protected] This episode is produced by Tyler Vanderwoude, Lucas Holtvluwer, and Mariah Tamminga in partnership with Reformed Perspective. Until next time, keep having real talk....

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If Dad told only dinosaur jokes - Part II How can you tell a dinosaur from a peanut? Try lifting it up. If you can’t, it’s probably a dinosaur. (Though it might be a heavy peanut.) What’s the difference between a dinosaur and a pencil? A dinosaur is harder to sharpen. Why did the dinosaur cross the road? It was the chicken’s day off. What’s the difference between a dinosaur and a cup of coffee? A dinosaur doesn’t keep you awake at night. (Usually.) What’s red, has a long neck, and hates to be touched? A dinosaur with sunburn. How are dinosaurs and bluebirds alike? They both have wings. Except for the dinosaurs. What do you do with a green dinosaur? Wait until it ripens. What do you do with a blue dinosaur? Cheer him up. What do you do with a white dinosaur? Try not to lose him in the snow. Source: inspired by, and some borrowed from Charles Keller’s “Colossal Fossils: Dinosaur Riddles” How he learned he needed to preach Mark 2:28 Some years ago, on an early Sunday morning, a young Dutch pastor faced a quandary. A snowstorm had closed the roads between his house and the church and there seemed no way he could make it there to preach. But then he had an idea. The canal running behind his house went right to the church, so he could still make it there if he skated. But was that a good idea? Bringing the Word was important; however his church was very firm on Sunday observance, and skating was simply not an acceptable Sunday activity. He hemmed and hawed before finally deciding that if it was at all possible, he just had to conduct worship. So the pastor strapped on his skates, and though the wind was howling, he managed to speedily make his way down the frozen canal right to the church building. When he walked up the steps, he saw the congregation was already in place, and as he stepped in the door, the consistory was there waiting for him, grim expressions all. The elders weren’t pleased, but they liked their young pastor and weren’t eager to publicly rebuke him. So after some hurried discussion among the men, one elder asked the pastor a question: “Did you enjoy the skating, reverend?” “No,” he replied, “I didn’t enjoy it at all.” “Phew!” the consistory said as one. It was all right – skating on Sunday could be allowed, just so long as there was no joy in it! Source: adapted from Michael Hodgin's “1001 More Humorous illustrations for Public Speaking” Big Brother can’t be father or mother “We fear the government may be powerful enough to destroy families; we know that it is not powerful enough to replace them.” – Ronald Reagan Never read a Bible verse Mark Twain once quipped that a cat that’s sat on a hot stove will never do so again… but he’ll never sit on a cold one either. In other words, that the lesson the cat learned had been applied broadly, even to circumstances where it isn’t warranted. That notion – that we shouldn’t overlearn our lessons – has biblical backing. God regularly tells us to do one thing in one place, and nearly the opposite elsewhere. The starkest contrast is Proverbs 26:4-5, where God begins with why we shouldn’t answer a fool (lest we appear like him), before, in the very next verse, telling us why we must answer a fool (lest he appear wise in his own eyes). So when should you do which? That’s where wisdom is required. Another contrast? Solomon’s advice to be like the hard-working ant who diligently plans ahead (Prov. 6:6-8), and Jesus’ encouragement not to be anxious about tomorrow (Matt. 6:25-34). Contradictions? Not at all – just different lessons for different circumstances. Solomon’s advice was for the lazy, and Jesus’ correction was to those fixated on the here and now rather than on God. So don’t be like Twain’s cat who let one incident shape its whole understanding. God gave us a Book, not just a verse, so we should be sure to never read just a Bible verse – read His Word in the context of what else God thought it important for us to know. Know your history "Any man who thinks he can be happy and prosperous by letting the Government take care of him better take a closer look at the American Indian!" – commonly attributed to Henry Ford, but without any clear sourcing. Whether from him or not, the truth it captures makes clear the foolishness of socialist schemes. Have scientists created life? Every few years media outlets share a startling scientific advancement about how a group of scientists have "created life." A couple recent examples include J. Craig Venter back in 2010 for creating "the world's first synthetic life form," and Elizabeth Strychalski and her crew in 2021 who "crafted a single-celled synthetic organism that divides and multiplies just like the real thing." Why is this so important? Because there's only two explanations for how life began: God, or godless. And these supposed "creations of life" are seen as steps towards coming up with a godless explanation. So have scientists actually created life? No. They've tinkered, placing engineered DNA in already living cells. So, they began with life and ended up with life.  And as Jonathan Sarfati noted: "It took an enormous amount of intelligence to make this cell, and they borrowed a lot of information from already-existing cells. In particular, they synthesized the genome of Mycoplasma mycoides, with 1.08 million base-pairs (bp)3 and about 985 genes.... it cost US$40 million and 200 man-years to produce." So with their brilliant minds, supercomputers, lab equipment, refined chemicals, all sorts of intentionality, and a living cell to start with they've managed to create life. Which is supposed to show us something about how it all could have happened accidentally and unintelligently? Tell that to a devoted evolutionist and they'll probably tell you it's only a matter of time before scientists figure it out. But time hasn't proven to be their friend. When Darwin proposed his theory, he thought the cell was made up of "membrane, nucleus, and nucleolus" which was all that could be seen under his day's microscopes. The ribosomes, Golgi apparatus, mitochondria and other microscopic machines were missed entirely, and the nucleus was a black box – unknown and disregarded – which made it a lot easier to ignore God's fingerprints evident all over the cell's design. But since then every new discovery has shown how much more complicated single-celled life is than previously realized. That means the more we are discovering, the more and more impossible abiogenesis – life from non-life – is revealed to be. And the more obvious the need for a great Genius to be behind it all. Just be yourself, they say There’s a story told about Abe Lincoln, that when he was at a hometown soiree, he approached the lady of his interest and told her, “Mary Todd, I want to dance with you in the worst way.” And after a turn around the floor together, she could only say, “You wanted to dance in the worst way, and you certainly did.” Why not fund my educational trip to Europe too? Our professor had written for the local daily newspaper for decades, and explained that before universities started offering journalism programs, his newspaper would put all their new hires through a 3-month training program. When journalism degrees became a thing, the paper cut back their own training program to just a month or two, and required all applicants have a journalism degree. So a young man or woman who wanted to be a journalist now had to invest 2 to 4 years of their life, and a lot of their own money and taxpayer money too on tuition, to get a piece of paper that would save the newspaper just a month or two of training. That doesn’t math. Meanwhile the government could talk about how it was directing so much new money towards post-secondary institutions so we could have a more educated workforce. But at what cost? As has been said: “If your college degree doesn’t have enough value for you to pay it off, it certainly doesn’t have enough value for me to pay it off.” Boys, do you want this to happen to you? Dinosaurs didn't read. And now they're extinct. When John MacArthur visited a philosophy class… We, as Christians, are called to walk humbly (Micah 6:8). But let’s not get confused about who or what we are being humble about. It’s us, not God. That’s a point worth pausing on. We so often get things wrong and muddled, so we have good reason to be humble. But not about God or His Word. Yet somehow, there are all sorts of topics the Bible is crystal clear on that we’re still acting quite “humbly” about, reluctant to speak up in His Name. It’s time to get confident. For inspiration, here’s a story from the late John MacArthur. This is a man who’d proclaim God’s Truth just as boldly sitting across from a newscaster as he would standing up in a pulpit, but the point here isn’t his example, but his basis – he had God’s Word. "As a Christian, you and I share this in common: I see things clearly. I see the world clearly. In fact, I often wonder why I'm not on more programs giving the right answer to everything. It's all very clear to me. Everything is clear to me. I understand where the world came from, where it's going. I understand all of that. I understand why things happen the way they happen. I understand life and death and life after death and heaven and hell and morality and immorality. I understand it all. I understand why the world is the way it is. Why people act the way they act. Am I particularly intelligent? No. Am I particularly wise? No. I just have the mind of Christ here in this book. “I remember one time, years ago, being invited to Cal State Northridge to speak to the philosophy class and the professor was a former rabbi who liked to chew on an occasional fundamentalist. And so, I was going to be the bone for that experience. I went to the class and I was supposed to talk on the subject of Christianity and culture. Well, I didn't want to talk about Christianity and culture. I wanted to talk about the gospel. I think I opened by saying, something like, ‘….I know this is a philosophy class, and I know that you're searching for the truth, and I'm here to bring your search to an end.’ “That was enough to lose them all. They looked like somebody had shot off a gun in the room. So, I said: ‘I'm here to tell you the truth. Tell you the truth about the origin of the universe. Tell you the truth about why the universe holds together. Things that Einstein couldn't figure out. I'm here to tell you where the universe is going in the future, how it will end. I'm here to tell you about life and death and the afterlife, morality, everything you want to know. I'm here to tell you all of it.’ “And when I said this, the rabbi professor was as stunned as everybody else. “I said, ‘But no matter what I say, you're not going to understand it and you're not going to believe it.’ “And one student at that moment spoke for all of them and said, ‘How do you know? How do you know we won't understand it? We won't believe it?’ “I said, ‘Because there's a prerequisite. For you to understand this, you have to have been transformed by faith in Jesus Christ so that your understanding is opened.’ “To which he replied, ‘Well, how does that happen?’ “And I said, ‘Good. Now we'll talk about how you become transformed by Jesus Christ.’ And so I went into the gospel, which was no small irritation to the professor. I remember an extended time of sharing the gospel with some of the students out in the hall after the class was over. A number of them came to church and a couple of them actually joined our ministry here and professed Christ. The Word brings light to absolutely everything." ...

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When the world falls into spiritual darkness and all you see around you is chaos and misery, what then? Kin Jong-un and Vladimir Putin meeting in China last year – North Korea has been supplying Russia with troops for their war with Ukraine since as early as 2024. 1 Isaiah, in chapter 24, spoke of how “The earth is utterly broken, the earth is split apart, the earth is violently shaken.” Was he speaking only to the people of his day about the earth being broken? Was he judging the nations of his time about the world being violently shaken? Or was he also speaking to the nations of the world today? Are our present lives, and the lives of those around us, in a state of rebellion against Almighty God? Ruins all around Most people enjoy eating a fine smorgasbord. As a matter of fact, the Chinese Mandarin restaurant is one of my favorite places to dine. To walk by the mouth-watering dishes displayed, and to anticipate dining, is delightful. To deposit a little scoop of this and a tad of that on a warm, hand-held plate, creates thankful moments. There are other smorgasbords displayed to us, however, which do not generate pleasure. The world is actually a smorgasbord right now – a literal smorgasbord of brokenness – of ruin. No matter where we turn in the newspapers, no matter what we turn to on our laptops, there are ruins we can choose to read about, or literally see misery portrayed on our screen. Grim headlines underline this actuality. Our plate of daily current events is filled with somber, unappetizing incidents. Is this where Canada’s Bill C-9 will take us? Finnish Member of Parliament, and former leader of the Finnish Christian Democrats, Päivi Räsänen was found guilty of hate speech earlier this year by her country’s Supreme Court for a booklet she and a Lutheran bishop co-authored in 2004 opposing same-sex “marriage.” 2 For example, it has of late been disclosed that the North Korean president, Kim Jong Un, is supporting a policy that requires soldiers to commit suicide on the battlefield to avoid capture, while fighting Russia’s war against Ukraine. For example, it has been verified that twenty-nine Christians were massacred in the Islamic state of Nigeria, during a soccer match in the spring of this year, 2026. The attack took place on a Sunday, included the torching of a church, and most of the victims were youths and women. For example, earlier this year of 2026, the College of Physicians and Surgeons of Ontario, Canada, investigated a Dr. MacLean of London, Ontario. Dr. MacLean diagnosed a man with inflammatory bowel disease while sitting with him in a car outside a Tim Horton’s. Afterwards, he personally drove this man, who was prone to depression, to a MAiD location where his life was ended. Dr. MacClean was only verbally cautioned by CPSO. For example, Canadian Bill C-9, also known as the Combatting Hate Act, passed the House of Commons, Senate and received Royal Assent. It removed the religious defence to hate speech in the Criminal Code. For example, the horrible tragedy of the earthquakes which have hit Venezuela. Venezuelan morgues are filling up rapidly. At the end of June 2026, the actual death toll was reported to be more than 2,300. However, the projected number of people missing and presumed dead, is running into many thousands more. Dead children arrive at morgues, so badly decomposed that they are unrecognizable. These smorgasbord current events detail a world that is a far cry from the “It was good” phrase, in Genesis 1. They reflect a world fallen into sin. Are we part of God’s restoration? Should we, therefore, mourn and lament over these present evil times? It is a fact, that like Jeremiah lamented, it is not a bad thing for us also to weep over worldwide sin. However, it is also a good thing to sit down and examine ourselves, to study our own hearts carefully, to make sure that our motives, our interactions with others and our priorities, are not in any way contributing to the evil around us. For example, do we encourage our next-door neighbors to live without fear? Does our joy in the prospect of life eternal, reflect in loving our neighbors, in bringing them both soup and the Gospel? For example, do we speak openly about these disasters with people we meet? Do we know our Bible well enough to testify with a smile that “God is our refuge and our strength” and that “therefore we will not fear” (Ps. 46)? When those nearby have a cast-down soul, can we boldly, like the Reformers before us, boost the spirits of those around us with personal anecdotes of answered prayer and songs of cheer? It is said of Luther, who loved the 46th Psalm dearly, that when his companions were cast down because of the seeming strength of the opposition, he would say: “Come, let us sing the Forty-Sixth Psalm, friends.” For example, do we testify to those dying in pain on a hospital bed, Jesus’ words in John 14 that their hearts ought not to be troubled? And can we explain why their hearts ought not to be troubled? Can we percolate the steadfast faith of Job to friends? Can we say with certainty to others, “I know that my Redeemer lives”? The evangelist, John Wesley, died on March 2,1791, at the age of 87. As he lay dying, with a group of friends gathered around his bed, Wesley’s last words were from Psalm 46, “The best of all is, God is with us.” He repeated this as he lifted his arms: "The best of all is, God is with us.” My niece’s daughter, Amy, died more than a month ago. She was thirty-five years old and had special-needs – but a person who knew and loved the Lord Jesus. A small story was told of her during the funeral. Amy had a friend whose name was Melissa. Melissa could not speak. During a Special Olympics day for those with special-needs, there was a race – a walking race from one point to another. Amy’s friend was participating in that race. But as she began to walk with all the other contestants, she suddenly froze. She seemed to be afraid and not able to move. Amy saw that her friend was afraid and walked away from the sidelines where she was watching and came up to Melissa. She took Melissa’s hand and told her it was all right. And Amy and Melissa finished that race together. And though this world, with devils filled, should threaten to undo us, we will not fear, for God has willed His truth to triumph through us. ***** 1 Photo credit: The President of the Russian Federation website www.kremlin.ru, and used under a Creative Commons Attribution 4.0 license. 2 Photo credit: Modified from a picture by Lauri Heikkinen and the Finnish Government and used under a CC by 2.0 Attribution 2.0 Generic license....

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What I like about my dumbphone

I’ve been using the Light Phone III exclusively for almost a year now and wanted to share a few notes for anyone who might be interested. First, the LPIII is not a smartphone at all. It truly is “dumb.” It doesn’t have email, a web browser, social media apps, or YouTube. It only has these basics: phone texting maps camera podcasts a calendar music notes calculator an alarm a timer I purchased the LPIII because it’s truly a dumbphone and doesn’t have any of the distractions that smartphones have. Second, it works well! Calls and texts are as they should be. The camera isn’t top-of-the-line, but it does a pretty good job. The podcast and music tools work as I’d expect. I load podcasts and music from my laptop on the Light Phone dashboard website. Easy! The Bluetooth works nicely with my earbuds and with my car’s aftermarket Pioneer radio. You can brighten/dim the screen using the little wheel on the side of the phone. There’s even a night mode that minimizes the blue light output. I love that you can use this phone in the sun and still see the screen just fine. Third, the LPIII is sturdy. It feels solid in my hand. It has a removable battery so I can replace it in the future if need be. Speaking of battery, I get around 2-3 days per charge. Fourth, there is a learning curve to using the phone. The user interface is not like your smartphone. That’s because it’s not designed to suck you in for hours at a time. Smartphone companies and app developers aim to keep users on the phone as much as possible. The Light Phone team does not have that philosophy at all. They purposely made the phone not addictive. Although the OS was new to me, I did adapt to the interface in just a week or two, and now it’s fine – I have no complaints. I realize the phone is not cheap ($699 right now – though the older version is half that). However, this phone is worth it to me for these reasons: my monthly phone bill is half what it used to be. That is a savings of around $250 per year. I don’t have to upgrade this phone every two or three years because the battery is easily replaceable, and Light will keep updating it as they have with the previous version of the phone. I don’t have to worry about data mining, creepy spyware, purchasing apps, or expensive subscriptions. I will never be addicted to this phone, nor will it distract me from being present. It’s hard to explain how wonderful it is not to be tethered to my phone. I often go for hours without touching my phone or thinking about it. LPIII is not for everyone. Don’t order it if you want a dumbed-down smartphone. There are apps and hacks for that. But if you’re looking for a good full-time dumbphone or a dumbphone for untethering on evenings and weekends, I’d suggest you check out the LPIII. There are other good dumbphones out there – I think several more came out in the last two years – but the LPIII is one of the best ones on the market right now. Before ordering the Light Phone III at theLightPhone.com be sure to check with your carrier to see if they support it. Canadian plans are $29 to $39 plus tax (though without a long-distance option)....

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Nearly 60% of violent crime cases now being stayed or withdrawn

“Justice delayed has become justice denied,” concluded a recent report from The Hub about the amount of time it is taking for criminal justice cases to be completed. Digging into the most recent data available across Canada, the report found that the median amount of time it takes to complete a case – from first appearance to a final decision – has increased 60 percent in just eight years. It’s gone from averaging around 4 months – varying from 121 to 124 days – for the 8 years preceding 2016, to now being well over 6 months, or 198 days for 2023/24. There are many costs to delaying justice, with a big one being guilty people set free because they haven’t been offered a trial within the “reasonable time” promised in the Charter of Rights. The same report found that over the same time period, there has been a corresponding increase in the number of cases that have been stayed or withdrawn. That means no finding of guilt or innocence has been reached. As The Hub’s David Snow reports: “Focusing on Canada outside Quebec , the proportion of criminal cases that were stayed or withdrawn increased from just under 35 percent in 2007/08 to 40 percent by 2019/20. The increase accelerated sharply after the pandemic, to the extent that more than 50 percent of criminal cases outside Quebec now end without a determination of guilt or innocence.” This is particularly the case for violent crimes, where now nearly three in five cases are stayed or withdrawn. As a result, fewer people are being found guilty, dropping from 63 percent to 46 percent. This isn’t because there are more acquittals. In fact, of the 228,425 adult court cases in 2023/2024: • 105,371 were found guilty • 118,265 were stayed or withdrawn • only 2,442 were acquitted God, who is perfectly just, calls us to image His justice. “Do not withhold good from those to whom it is due, when it is in your power to act" we are instructed in Proverbs 3:27. And as we read in Jeremiah 21:12, it must be done promptly. “Administer justice every morning; rescue from the hand of the oppressor the one who has been robbed.” So the Charter of Rights’ call for trials in a “reasonable time” is good – we don’t want people who’ve never been convicted, languishing in jail for years on end before they even have a trial. Imagine if you are innocent, and you’re made to wait in jail for even “just” 4 months. This needs to be fixed....

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“What can I do?” Part II

35 more screen-alternatives ***** For our first screen-fast in 2025, we offered up 35 ideas for great activities you and your family can do with your screen-free moments, minutes, hours, and days. As we get set for another fast, we have another opportunity to make a course-correction in our lives when it comes to where our hearts, minds, and eyes are directed. We’re back with 35 more activities, including some ideas from people who did the screen-fast last summer. But first, let’s start with one of their testimonials on why it is worth taking the screen-fast plunge: “I somewhat reluctantly signed up for the screen-fast as my wife and kids were participating, but reflecting on it now, I can see God's hand working through them and the screen-fast. “I spent more time reading the Bible and additional study material, and more time in prayer and reflection. I was able to think more clearly after the first few days as the cheap distraction of screens was gone. This gave me time and focus to think through issues at work which I've been contending with for around a year and come to difficult decisions there that I had perhaps been avoiding. My time was better spent in devotions, exercise, conversation, family activities, and time in God's creation. I felt much better mentally, physically, and spiritually at the end of the ten days. “I intend to do this screen-fast again in the future and strongly encourage anyone who has not done it to do so and aim to grow in service of our gracious God.” What follows are 35 suggestions, gathered from RP readers and staff, for what you can do with all your extra screen-free time! Make God first Bible-in-a-year is easier – “My husband and I also had more time to work on our ‘Bible-in-a-year’ readings in the evenings as well as more time to journal and read some fiction.” Devoted devotions – “I started each day with devotions rather than reaching for my phone and therefore skipping devotions didn’t happen anymore.” Remembering to pray – “Helped to remind me to pray every time I went to tap an ‘earbud’.” Break, and bake, bread Rediscover dinner – “We had meals at the kitchen table instead of in the living room while watching YouTube.” Hold a tasting party – It doesn’t need to be fancy. Kids could find it fun to make and sample 3 different kinds of macaroni with a couple of different ketchups. Or have a soda sampler, using shot glasses, teaching your littles to “clean their palates” before sampling the next. Twists on reading a good book Pay your kids to read what you want – Some kids won’t read, and others only read a certain sort of book. If you’re spending thousands on Christian education, maybe a few hundred could be devoted to upgrading your children’s summer reading by paying them to read the books you really want them reading. Maybe it’s an old classic like Pilgrim’s Progress (but be sure you have a copy with updated English) or a great Christian biography you loved. Would a couple bucks motivate them? Maybe a fiver? This wouldn’t be a great idea long-term – we don’t want them thinking reading is a job – but for the 10 days of the screen-fast maybe it’d be just right. All together now – Try reading a picture book together – maybe one by Mo Willems about Piggie and Gerald, but any heavy-on-dialogue book would do. Then assign each family member and friend a character. Give them a few moments to create the character’s voice. Mom or dad can act the part of the narrator, and you are ready for a dramatic performance. Library treasure hunt – Pick an animal you want to know more about, and then head to the library to research all about it. Everyone needs to choose their own animal, read up, and present your findings in a few days. Best done with adult oversight, or when your kids are able to see through most nature books’ evolutionary nonsense, and can see God’s fingerprints evident in their new favorite critter. Love the neighbor next to you Only head up in the room – “Quite often if you're sitting in a waiting room, someone will strike up a conversation with you, because you're available and willing to talk. You may have an impact on someone else's day. Smile and give eye contact!” Howdy! – Go for a walk and talk, chatting up all the neighbors you meet. Paint party – Paint the opening question and answer of the Westminster or Heidelberg Catechisms on your garage door. Then spend extra time outside, with your head up, ready for any conversations that may come. Outdoor games night – Hold a games night on your front lawn and invite passersby to join in. Make sure they are simple short games, to make it easiest. Be contagious Show, don’t tell – “Over the days slowly joined me in some of my non-screen pursuits, doing jigsaw puzzles and chatting over cups of tea.” “We had family come for summer holidays, and they willingly partook (kids too)! Fishing and bike rides at 7 am rather than cartoons…win!” Start a “What I wouldn’t have seen” journal – Every time a family member sees something they know they wouldn’t have seen if they’d been on a screen, they should write it down in this journal. It may be quite the collection before the screen-fast is done! Actually fix things All-in hour – Your honey-do list is getting long? Pick one hour each day for everyone to just get at whatever needs to be gotten. Dishes piling up? That door squeaking? It’s so much more motivating to work, when no one can shirk. One room at a time – Each day, a different room. You’re picking a target, not promising yourself perfection. So pick a room, get help, and get what you can done in a set amount of time. Then tomorrow, move on to the next room whether you’re done this one or not. Gaming together Race remote control cars – “The quality time together was definitely better as we played cards, drove RCs at the park and made homemade cards.” Rebound for your bro or sis – “Our whole family did a lot more reading, board game playing, and shooting hoops…. I was impressed to see them doing Sudokus, reading, looking out the window, and playing cards with each other.” Embrace the boredom Be bored – “My 10-year-old said that she found more space to be creative when the computer and TV was off.” Tackle a “shower thought” – It’s no wonder so many of us get our best ideas in the shower as there’s nothing else for our brain to do in there but think. Now don’t just think about it; use your extra time to turn an idea into reality. Enjoy your spouse Go on walks – “It helped me reconnect with my wife. Instead of sitting on the couch consuming content in the evenings, we went for more walks and had more time to talk about what was going on.” Go to bed at the same time – It can be hard to connect if you’re falling asleep to a device. But if you turn off the distractions, you can tune into your spouse, and vice versa. “My best recommendation for others would be to eliminate phones from your bedroom. Reading my Bible nightly is way more likely to happen when Instagram is more than a click away. That Christian influencer's advice might be insightful, but God's Word will not return empty (Is. 55:11).” Wash the dishes together – A dishwasher is a lovely thing, but it’s sweet teamwork when a couple divvies up the washing and drying. In our busy lives, this short time right after dinner is still usually open and available, not just to work, but to flirt. Connect with the kids Backyard camping – Pitch the tent, get out the flashlights, and if you can, get some s’mores made. And when it’s time to sleep, have dad or mom read a story, or share a childhood adventure. Game-night marathon – Play your kids’ favorite board or card game as many times in a row as they like, even into the wee hours of the night. More painting Untouched canvas – If your house has a big blank wall somewhere, do something about it. With some painter’s tape, line out, and then paint in, a humungous rectangular frame that you and your friends or family are now going to fill in with your own beautiful artistry. Try, try again – Get small, inexpensive canvases from the store and paints, and paint your masterpiece. Then, tomorrow, paint over it. Continue until you’ve got something you love. Help a widow – Organize a painting party (painting the fence, etc.) for a widow. Challenges Family read-a-thon – Make up your own rules, but here’s something you could try. Mark off a sheet of paper divvying each day in hours and put it on your fridge. Every family member writes down how many (if any) pages they’ve read that hour. The one who gets the most pages in that hour gets a point. Most points in a day gets a small prize. Most points over the 10 days gets to have mom and dad pay for a book of their choosing. Wall of gratitude – Every hour you can write down on an index card something you are thankful for. Then tape that card to a wall. You can only do one an hour, and if you miss an hour, you can’t catch up. Each thankful card has to be original – no repeated thanks for your spouse or children, etc., no matter how grateful you are. The point is for us all to see how many different ways God is blessing us. For fun, get a pack of different color index cards, and maybe use some color pens to draw word art or a picture on each one. There are roughly 160 awake hours over the 10-day screen-fast, so see just how full you can fill your wall of gratitude. Exercise eke-up – Set a goal, any goal. Want to be able to run for half an hour? Try running for just a tenth of that on day 1 – just 3 minutes. Then add a tenth for day 2, and run 6 minutes. Keep adding a tenth a day and by day 10 you’ll be running 30 minutes. Was that too ambitious? Then start again back at the step before it got hard and cut your increments in half. Try this same, slow-and-steady, super-small-steps approach to whatever exercise (push-ups, planking, swimming, a stretching routine) you want to get better at. A pizza a day – Without a doubt, there is no more perfect food, what with the amazing variety of ways it can be prepared and varied. Do your research beforehand – when the Internet can still be a resource – or check out a few pizza-making cookbooks from your local library. Then plot out what kind of pizza you’ll make for each day. Preparations can involve making lists for the grocery store, and recruiting volunteers to craft each pie. Bike where you’ve never been – Find an old-fashioned paper map and use it to plot out places in your town you’ve never biked. Then head off and see what there is to see (avoiding any dangerous spots, of course) and afterward mark it off on your map, filling in every street you’ve biked up or down. Stretch your attention span Read for an hour straight – Note down on a piece of paper a mark for every time you were tempted to stop reading and look at your phone. Watch a documentary carefully – This might seem a bit of a cheat, but being screen-free is more about intentionality than abstinence. So pick a good one deliberately (we’ve got plenty of suggestions) and watch it that way too, with your thumb on the pause button so it can be stopped and discussed. Illustrations by Hannah Penninga....

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“What can I do anyways?”

35 screen-alternative ideas ***** You can’t beat something with nothing (as Eph. 4:28, Matt. 12:30, and Matt. 12:43-45 make clear). That means if you want to do RP's 10-day screen-fast challenge July 21-30, it isn’t realistic to expect to manage without your phone if you haven’t made plans for what you’ll do the next time you’re tempted to reach for it. So here are ideas for what you and your family can do with your screen-free moments, minutes, hours, and days. Plan away Short-term - Using the list below and a brainstorming session with family or friends, create a list of activities for your 10 days of screen-free time. Medium-term - pull out a big piece of craft paper and along with your family create a list of items you’d love to do this summer. Long-term - Spend an hour writing out a list of 50 goals, big or small, for your future. Share and refine it with input from family and friends. On the homefront Clean one room at a time – you have 10 days, so what if you took on one room a day, and gave it the “clean, organize, and de-clutter” you’ve been meaning to do just about forever? Honey-do list - make your better half happy by fixing something. Hospitality Host a dinner for friends and do it up with candles. Make meal prep part of the entertainment by learning to make something new. Sushi anyone? How about calzones? Put on a games night, and invite your friends to bring along their favorites. Invite someone you might not normally interact with. Focus on games that allow for conversation (the less intense sort). Search for “board games” on ReformedPerspective.ca for our suggestions. Reconnect Is your family spread across the continent, or around the world? Pick up the phone and chat away – phone one person a day. Everyone loves a letter – make a package to mail away to grandma and grandpa. Read something awesome While your local library likely has too much weird stuff to want to take your kids there, you can reserve books to pick up. Before you turn off your computer to start your screen fast, be sure to check out RP’s recommendations for picture books, graphic novels, biographies, and novels for all ages. We have hundreds of nominees for you at Reformedperspective.ca/books. Remember to take a book with you wherever you go to fill in those spare moments when you used to play a phone game. New Testament Bible reading challenge anyone? If you read for a half hour each day, starting at Matthew, you could make it through most of the gospels in 10 days. Listen to a dramatized audiobook like the Chronicles of Narnia. Interview someone Interview your grandparents or parents or an inspirational someone you’d like to learn from… but first, alone, or together with friends or family, come up with a list of 20 questions to ask them. How did they meet their spouse? Was there an important lesson they learned the hard way? How have they seen God acting in their life? If they could go back in time, what would they tell their 15-year-old self? Etc. Interview your cat, dog, or even your favorite book, and imagine the answers they’d give. Be sure to write it all down, so you can share it with your family! Start (or share) a hobby Always wanted to learn to crochet, draw, or play the guitar? Get yourself prepped to give it a real go by either finding someone who will teach you, or finding a book or maybe even a video series (maybe that’s one of your exceptions?). Teach your kids, or a friend’s kids, how to sew, whittle, sketch, paint, or hit a baseball. Get some exercise Go for a long walk each day or head out on a hike with your spouse, family, a friend or two, or take the time alone to talk with God. Try something new. Pickleball anyone? Rock climbing? How about swimming? Or what about a program to help with your achy knees? Volunteer Babysit for a couple so they can have a nice evening out. Ask your oma if she needs any help around her house or yard. Deliver some Let Kids Be brochures door-to-door for ARPA Canada. Staycation Become a tourist in your own backyard and check out your local attractions – museums, zoo, historical sites, hiking and biking trails, playgrounds, thrift stores, and more. Build a fire in your backyard, roast marshmallows, make s’mores, stargaze, and swap tall tales. Reboot your gratitude Start a gratitude journal and journal daily – God has given us so much that we can easily overlook the blessings all around. Give Him glory by taking the time to see it all. Make it a family challenge to come up with 5 (or more, or less – see how hard or easy it is) events, people, or things that made you happy today. Write each one down on a notecard, accompanied by some related artwork, and post them to a hallway wall. For motivation’s sake, come up with a small reward (a Hershey kiss?) for each notecard, and a small penalty (one push-up per) for whatever each participants falls short of. Click away Create a photo scavenger hunt for your friends – a list of 10 items for teams to search out and find in the great outdoors and take a picture of to prove they found them. Items can be anything, but they should be possible, but hard, to find like a four-leaf clover, or something in nature shaped like a Z, etc. Take pictures for RP's summer photo contest. Find the rules and deadline by clicking here. An evening inside Read the same book together, out loud with one copy (taking turns, and maybe while doing a puzzle) or quietly with multiple copies. Be interruptible so you and your kids can share your favorite parts. Create your own game together. It can be whatever you like, but two easy and fun possibilities involve variants on Pictionary and charades. The first step is to create a “deck” of 100 things you’ll either draw or act out with every player contributing ideas. You can now divide into teams, or just take turns being the drawer or actor, with everyone else guessing. Mix it up by giving the option of acting or drawing the card. Play a round and get everyone to offer up a new twist on the rules and then vote on your favorite and play again. Write Write about your experiences doing the screen-fast and think about sharing it with RP! Write a letter to your younger self and share the 10 pieces of advice you’d want him to know. Falling asleep Fall asleep to a devotional. If you find it hard to get to sleep at night without a screen, try reading a devotional. Prayer, and then a few minutes reading, can help you hand off your concerns to God. If you’re married, take turns doing the reading. Couples can use the undistracted time at the end of the day to be fully present with their spouse – emotionally, spiritually, and physically. Turn off the screens and turn toward each other. Challenges Everyone loves a competition so create a challenge a day and recruit your family and friends. Examples could include doing 100 of anything (push-ups, squats, etc.) over a day. Or going 24 hours without saying anything negative (do a pushup/squat when you blow it). Track how many times you reach for or pine for your screen using a communal tick – maybe a sheet of paper on the fridge. See how you compare to your friends, and how your first day compares to day 10. Challenge your kids to find 10, 20, or even 100 things in their room (or the house) to throw out or give away. Plan out the next challenge that Reformed Perspective should do.   Pictures by Hannah Penninga....

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Love thy neighbor. Love thy neighborhood encampment…?

A more broken down part of Hamilton. What comes to mind when you think of Hamilton, Ontario? The waterfall capital of the world? The armpit of the Golden Horseshoe? Or perhaps you’ve visited recently, and found the “Social Services Capital of Canada” to be seriously… hurting. The city is fraying at the edges. Encampments continually crop up in our parks, leaving behind needles, actual mounds of garbage, and disturbed souls hanging out by the playground. It’s a city where drug addicts shoot up on streets, many bent in the signature “fenty-fold.” Police recently discovered a labyrinth of tunnels in our largest park, connecting tents to a generator and tapping into the city’s power supply. This is where my kids play next to the “Truck Man,” who lives out of a beat-up black pickup and occasionally flashes his brass knuckles. Just last fall, thieves broke into a nearby vehicle. Discovered by a vigilante neighbor, they dashed within five feet of my kids as they played in our yard. Down the escarpment, my friend’s aged neighbor was attacked in his own home last year, stabbed to death by a homeless man on drugs. This is the new Hamilton, and we’re all still trying to cope with it. When I see a new tent being pitched just down the road, I cringe. Not another one. Not more brokenness and filth in our neighborhood. Please just move away! Then I feel a twinge of guilt because Jesus calls us to love our neighbor (Matt. 22:39) and minister to the least of these (Matt. 25:40). He reaches out to the most vulnerable and rejected of society, and commissions us to do the same. “Please move away!” isn’t in the Great Commission. My cringing disgust and Christ’s commands have created a strong dissonance within me. I suspect that many Canadians and Americans feel the same, as our lands slip deeper into brokenness and ruin. An idolatry of comfort Winston Bosch is the pastor ofHamilton's Streetlight Christian Church. Pastor Winston Bosch ministers to Streetlight Christian Church, a missional Canadian Reformed congregation set in Hamilton’s inner city. After serving impoverished peoples (both in Hamilton and abroad) for over seven years, Bosch still feels that dissonance. “I’m constantly uncomfortable,” he admits. “Christ is no longer here on earth, and so we His Church go about sharing the Gospel, being the voice and hands of the Good Shepherd. That involves getting dirty and messy with poverty and it’s uncomfortable. We share in His suffering.” As middle-class Canadians, we’ve been shielded from much of the brokenness of this world. But it’s moving in, it’s around the corner and it’s in our face. That desire to hunker down with our families in a fortress, walled off from the problems of the world? Maybe it points to something hidden deep in our hearts. Pastor Bosch calls it “the idolatry of comfort.” “If the religion that the Lord accepts as pure and faultless is to look after orphans and widows and to keep one’s self from being polluted by the world, then the Lord also wants us not to be polluted by the world of comfort and ease, but to move towards suffering.” Move towards suffering? That’s tricky to do, especially when that suffering comes with a smell or bed bugs. Yet the Scriptural imperative to minister to our poor is clearly written throughout Scriptures. James 2 lays a finger on our tendency towards favoritism. “Suppose a man comes into your meeting wearing a gold ring and fine clothes, and a poor man in filthy old clothes also comes in…” Who do we give the best seat to? James brings us back to the second great command, love your neighbor as yourself. So how do we? Let’s tackle that question step by step. The “problem” – a closer look at our poor and needy Admittedly, I’ve been quick to spout out all sorts of excuses when I see homeless people. “Why don’t they just get a job? They’re only on the street because they can’t do drugs in shelters…” And there’s some truth in those objections. But when you look closely at the real facts, these trite little phrases ring hollow. Last year the City of Hamilton reported that only 747 shelter beds are available for the estimated 1,500 homeless people in the city.1 Across the lake in Toronto, dozens of calls requesting shelter (and as many as 150+ requests a day during certain months) were not matched to a bed last year. Though the 2026 numbers seem to be improving, unmet requests can mean death on frigid Ontario winter nights.2 That can mean death on those frigid winter nights. For many, Pastor Bosch says, it’s easier to skip the shelter lineups and just live in a park. We’ve all felt the financial crunch as the cost of living has risen – that’s had an even greater impact on the poor. Our social services are overwhelmed and insufficient to meet the needs of many. Consider the prospects of someone on disability support in Ontario. They can receive up to $1,408 per month.3 About $1000 of that goes to rent (if they’re lucky! Market rent on studio apartments averages $1450, although individual rooms are under $1000 if you can weather the safety hazards). $125 buys a bus pass, leaving just $283 for the month’s groceries. Bosch says that social workers will actually tell their clients, “‘Look, your Ontario Disability is not enough for rent and food, so you need to go around to all the churches and ask for help. That’s the only way you’ll survive.” Another contributing factor to poverty is disability and mental health struggles. Teresa Howe is a community engagement manager for Indwell, a Christian charity devoted to providing affordable housing. She reports that almost 80 percent of Indwell’s tenants have a chronic mental health diagnosis, including schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, etc. “We don’t have cures for any of these,” Howe reflects. “It’s just something you’re living with… But a large part of challenges are gone when they have supportive housing. If people are taking meds regularly and going to appointments, we can help prevent hospitalization.” Serving at Mission in the Margins Of course, addiction is a huge driver of poverty and homelessness – as is painfully obvious on Hamilton’s streets. Howe says Indwell has many supports in place for tenants struggling with addictions, to help them “meet their recovery goals.” This approach breaks down when tenants show little in the way of recovery goals, but at this time and place in Canada, it’s something. “Their best chance at recovery is stable housing,” Howe says. “Whoever got sober living in an encampment or under a bridge?” But what does providing stable housing look like for unstable people? If it is accompanied with any sort of requirements – like sobriety – some won’t accept it. And it if is provided with no obligations, it doesn’t take a prophet to predict what an apartment or small room will soon look like if an addict treats it with the same respect they give their own body. A more drastic abstinence-focused approach is necessary – but more on that later. Perhaps the most heartrending aspect of all this is family and generational breakdown. Pastor Bosch tells story after story of this, as adults with a history of enormous trauma raise children of their own. In Streetlight Christian Church, where Bosch pastors, the vast majority of church members coming from surrounding neighborhoods have suffered extreme trauma, like severe physical or sexual abuse and neglect. Grandparents raise their grandchildren, because parents are addicted and off the radar. Bosch recalls one kid whose only real interaction with either parent was searching out his mom in an encampment on his birthday every year, and getting a few bucks as a present. One fellow recently told Bosch that he had four different names before turning five years old – because every time he was “thrown around” to another home, the caregiver would give him a new name. There’s a 17-year-old girl who came to Streetlight’s family support worker. She was born in a tent, her birth never registered. The worker went to enormous lengths to get government ID so this girl could then attend school. This is the legacy that is passed on – a burden of generational problems, both learned (addiction, etc.) and inborn (e.g. Fetal Alcohol Spectrum Disorders.) “We have six-year-olds coming in with no bowel control,” Bosch says, “They stink and are dirty, they have no shoes in the winter… when that person becomes an adult, there’s a good chance that person will be on and off the street.” Jim*, a 16-year-old young man, was raised by his grandparents. They gave him marijuana as a child when he was anxious. With no one sending him off to school, Jim’s attendance was spotty. He came to Streetlight, and began a youth internship, setting up chairs and cleaning. Jim shared his two life goals with Streetlight’s youth worker: he wanted a job (nobody in his family had a job), and a family that sat down to eat together (the very things we usually take for granted!). Jim applied to jobs with nothing on his resume but the Streetlight internship. One day he came up to Bosch, beaming. “Pastor Winston, guess what – I got a job!” Streetlight celebrates the wins, but doesn’t lose sight of the pattern. Family and generational brokenness are the norm, the legacy being inherited. It’s a community crying out for the healing of the Gospel. And it brings me back to my own, beautiful upbringing – two godly parents, five wonderful siblings, a home and three meals a day. What do I have that I haven’t been given? The need for a multi-pronged response Things look pretty dark for Canada. We’ve cast off our Christian heritage with vitriolic fervor and are reaping the rewards of godlessness. Poverty is moving in quickly. Brokenness is becoming the norm. Amidst this, may Christ’s Church shine out like a city on a hill. Serving with Mission in the Margins Pastor Bosch sees a strong need for a multi-pronged response to homelessness and addiction. Much like Christians have split the pro-life cause into political action (lobbying for legal change) and mercy ministry (pregnancy centers, etc.), Bosch sees room for a similar approach here. On the political front, Canada’s soft response to encampments has had a ruinous effect on our communities and the homeless themselves. Alberta Social Services Minister Jason Nixon points out that encampments are not a humane response to homelessness – they quickly become cesspools of homeless-on-homeless abuse, drug addiction, human trafficking, often being run by drug cartels. By contrast to much of Canada, Alberta disassembled many homeless encampments and provided residents with social services, including rehab and mental health supports. This hasn’t been a seamless process, but it’s a better response for all concerned than simply enabling lawless encampments.4 As Romans 13:3 says “For rulers are not a terror to good conduct, but to bad.” It’s time for the government to take up its role in protecting the vulnerable and punishing the evil-doer. In the realm of drugs and addictions, the federal government has moved from prevention to “harm reduction,” effectively turning itself into a colossal drug dealer.5 The Association for Reformed Political Action (ARPA) recommends an alternative model similar to Portugal’s, which offers addicts a choice between treatment or legal penalties. The sad truth is that many addicts are, well, addicted and won’t choose treatment of their own free will. Addiction motivates many homeless people towards violent or criminal activity, thereby harming residential neighborhoods and parks. A move to mandatory treatment would greatly improve the lives of our addicts, homeless and general population. To date, ARPA does not have an active campaign pushing for this approach – it remains an area of need for Christian political action. When you throw in the crush of waves of recent refugees and an overwhelmed social system so bureaucratically constipated that accessing services is a monumental job, things are dark for impoverished and homeless Canadians. So what’s a Christian to do? The Church’s response – far from easy to know what to do Ministering to the homeless gets complicated. My cousin Steven Williamson pastors Cornerstone URC in London, Ontario. London is known as the “Zombie Capital of Canada,” and Williamson’s church is in the thick of it. The church has actively reached out to the homeless camping on church property and in the neighborhood. Williamson tells the story of one fellow – we’ll call him Zach. Zach attended church and Bible study for four months, bringing his backpack along with him every time. One morning, a church member nudged his bag – Zach began screaming and shouting. He turned violent, pulling a long butcher knife from his backpack. A week later, he returned. Williamson and some other fellows escorted him out the door, locking it behind him. Zach then attempted to throw bricks through the windows but couldn’t break the safety glass. He tried to enter by sliding his knife through the double doors and opening the lock, while Williamson held the doors shut from inside. That wasn’t in his seminary training! “Our justice system is not protecting us properly,” Williamson commented. He discovered that the man had a whole history of pulling knives on others. “The church bears the basin and the towel, but the government bears the sword. We have to hold our government to the fire.” Williamson and his church are in a tight spot. “We want to be kind and merciful, but we also need to be safe. We don’t really have many good answers and it feels very much beyond us as a church.” Streetlight Christian Church The Church shines brightest in the dark. Someone told Pastor Winston Bosch the other day that, “If Reformed Christians and Roman Catholics were not doing work in Hamilton it would be like hell on earth.” Bosch says most of the real ministry to the poor is being done by Christians. “The church is active and the Gospel is going out.” Streetlight Christian Church has been reaching out to the poor regions of Hamilton for 26 years. They work with many people upstream or downstream from homelessness. Serving with Mission in the Margins An active part of their support is working together with city and housing workers to help people navigate social services. Many folks need help recovering identification papers or, with the many who are illiterate, simply reading documents. Streetlight holds adult Bible studies, and offers community kids’ sporting opportunities. They also offer weekly meals, Bible lessons and discipling for those who want to know God more. The church provides a sense of love and community, always accompanied by the good news of the Gospel. It can be discouraging work. Bosch says the Streetlight team has to “fight for joy, seeing where wonderful things are happening.” And there are many. Like one teen who recently asked Streetlight’s youth worker, “I’m a Christian… is that an insult to my First Nations ancestors?” Or the folks who used to be sleeping outside the building, now coming to church healthy and clean. And the 16-year-old girl from a loving – and very Buddhist – family. “I think I’m a Christian,” she told Bosch, “But my parents are Buddhists…” How does she reconcile these two things? Healing and growth don’t always look like we’d expect. “I meet so many people in downtown Hamilton that are believers,” Bosch shares, “and their life is just a living miracle. Everything in life has been against them. And they’re still alive. They live in a tent, but they’re praising the Lord! The Holy Spirit is doing work right now, in unexpected places.” The miracles are all around, for those with eyes to see. Bosch recalls a church member – once a drug addict, now a believer. Her life is still a mess. One day Bosch found her outside, screaming and cursing out another church member. Bosch tapped her on the shoulder. “Hey, can I talk to you?” he asked. Her response caught him by surprise. “Praise the Lord, Pastor! Five years ago, I would have beat the s* out of that b*, and today all I did was yell at her. The Holy Spirit is working in my life!” And so He is! Mission to the Margins As a young man Jeff Hesselink walked away from his loving Christian family and struck out for western Canada, and ended up on the streets. Now, in the city of Cambridge, Jeff Hesselink works as a chaplain with Mission to the Margins, ministering to the homeless and impoverished. In the nearby city of Cambridge, Jeff Hesselink works as a chaplain with Mission to the Margins, ministering to the homeless and impoverished. The Gospel is at the heart of everything they do. “What we bring most of all is the message of the Gospel, but we do that in conjunction with meeting people’s tangible needs as much as we can.” Twice a week they work with churches to provide meals to those who need it. A Gospel message is served before the meal (prepared in-house by church volunteers.) Guests are welcome to the ministry’s food bank, clothing room, and laundry and shower facilities. Throughout the week, the ministry offers pastoral, grief and community support, a bike repair clinic and mentorship. “Here, in this place,” Hesselink says, “People find a warm place like home on cold winter nights; a refreshing place to halt their unceasing march, to come cool off from the oppressive heat of scorching summer days. And here people find relief from that crushing, suffocating plague of loneliness… All this is nothing new or innovative. The church has been caring for the poor and needy like this… since its inception.” Hesselink knows firsthand that unceasing march. As a young man he walked away from his loving Christian family and struck out for western Canada. He came to the end of himself and made a deal with God: either God would reveal Himself to Hesselink, or the desperate young man would call it quits – because life without Him was unbearable. God heard, and answered in a powerful way. Hesselink vividly recalls those days. “Suffice it to say that as I made my way West I was given a new life, and a hope and a future in Him.” Hesselink had peace – but he didn’t have a home. “Here on the streets, in a city I had never been in before, people treated me like I was a thing and not a person, like a garbage can or street post they needed to get around...” Many years later, God has given Hesselink a home, a family and a calling – to reach out to others on the margins, as he once was, with the hope of the Gospel. He recalls a recent conversation with Barry*. As they were discussing Matthew 7, Barry asked in a hushed voice, “How do I do it? What do I do? How do I take the next step in Christianity?” Essentially it was the question of the Philippian jailor, “What must I do to be saved?” The Gospel will triumph in Hamilton, Canada, and the world As Canada slides into deeper poverty and brokenness, Christians need to shine the light of Christ to the impoverished and homeless. The call is both personal and corporate. On a personal level, it starts with seeing the resident homeless man, not as a “street post” to get around, but as a person made in the image of God. We can pray for them and offer to buy them food or other necessities. Corporately, we as churches have a mandate to minister to the least of these. Partnering with an inner-city church or Gospel-driven ministry is both obedient and redemptive. The seed of the Word will fall on good earth. Bosch and his church are seeing that. They work with eyes open to the suffering, and with sights fixed on the future. “I know the end of the story,” Bosch says. “I’ve read the end of the Bible and Jesus wins! There’s no more suffering. He’s going to take His nail-scarred hand and wipe away every tear… He’s going to make all things new. And all the brokenness, sin, suffering and bad decisions; all of that will be pushed into outer darkness and will be made right. Jesus is doing that. He’s going to win!” Names with an * have been changed to protect privacy. Pictures graciously supplied by Jeff Hesselink. Endnotes 1 https://www.hamilton.ca/city-council/news-notices/news-releases/city-calls-enhanced-support-government-partners-address 2 https://www.toronto.ca/city-government/data-research-maps/research-reports/housing-and-homelessness-research-and-reports/shelter-system-requests-for-referrals/ 3 https://www.ontario.ca/page/income-support-odsp 4 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_2V8nKqLkFg 5 In an effort to move addicts away from dangerous street drugs, Safe Supply Centres offer “safer supply” drugs – prescription fentanyl and other drugs. https://arpacanada.ca/articles/canadas-drug-crisis-a-wicked-public-policy-problem-part-4/...

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Interview with an artist

Laura Kroesbergen’s hyperrealistic animals

Capturing a moment in pastel ***** 'A Whole New World'15.5x21.5in.This lion cub's inquisitive expression portrays the universal curiosity of the young - a good reminder to be ever curious about ourselves and those around us. In her childhood, Laura Kroesbergen found she struggled with confidence in her relationships with people, but when she was in nature or with animals she could relax and be herself. Animals’ ability to tune into non-verbal cues and communicate through them seemed, to her, to bring them a softer, calmer way of life. And horses, in particular, inspired her with their majesty, and freedom. They became a major source of inspiration for her works in pastel. Her pastel drawings are filled with the texture of hair on the horses’ necks, and veins outlining their muscles, as they gallop across the field or gaze wisely at you. Horses were her first drawing interest. However, after encouragement from her mother and others, she began to create drawings of other wildlife as well – prowling panthers, curious lion cubs, and guarded antelopes. Her faith is an inescapable part of her work. As she explains, “Since going through severe depression in my early 20s, I have come to recognize the value of life, and though my focus is still on the animal world, I now try to bring some of that ‘life essence’ into each drawing.” 'Night Prowler'24x18in.The black panther (aka the black leopard), is a melanistic leopard with a recessive gene that produces more pigment, thus creating the black coat. These leopards are mostly found in the forested areas of Africa and Asia, however, this particular leopardess lives wild in the African country of Kenya. She intuits what makes living things tick, and translates that into her work. Detail is also important: “Working in the field of hyper- or photo-realism also brings the unique experience of learning the subtle colors and intricate patterns our Creator has put into His creation. The more detail I dive into, the more detail there is to see. This gives me a beautiful glimpse of how infinite our glorious God is.” For Laura, doing her absolute best is a big part of how she brings her faith into her work. This ties into the intricate detail and realism she always attempts to capture. “The attitude of, 'it's the best I can do,' if it's not realistic, is not something I allow for myself,” she says. She tries to combine the accuracy of a photograph with the added emotion or “essence” of what she’s drawing – essentially capturing a moment in time. This influenced her choice of pastels as a medium. At first, she did all her drawings primarily in grayscale, because she found capturing color much more difficult. But after watching an online time-lapse video of an artist using pastels, she was surprised to find herself thinking, “I can probably do that.” To her delight, she found she was able to create beautiful hyperrealist drawings in pastel on her first attempt. She sees this as a major way God was working in her life at that time, as she was laid up with a fractured pelvis and was asking Him about what she could learn during her time of recovery. 'A Mother's Love'18x24in.This pastel painting captures a quiet moment between a zebra mother and son. “Pastels are a great way for me to achieve more of a 'painterly' effect without having to switch to a wet medium…though trying out painting is on my list,” she explains. She is fascinated by how much color can be put out by a simple pastel pencil. And the paper she uses can hold many layers of pencil without getting too saturated, and it contains felt so she doesn’t need to use a fixative spray to keep the pastel from smudging. She is currently not working as an artist full-time, though she did pursue this in the past, and continues to draw and create. “I do wonder in what ways God will have me use my skills in the future,” she says, “since this is a talent He has given me.” You can see more of Laura Kroesbergen’s work at laurachristinefineart.com. She also does pet portraits, which you can view there. Or contact her by email with your questions about art-related things at [email protected].   Harma-Mae Smit loves to write and think about art, despite not being an artist herself. She loves how art can reflect the Creator Himself. Send Harm-Mae Smit suggestions for artists to profile at [email protected], including their contact information....

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Technology

Less screens = more life

What we learned by stepping away from our phones for 10 days ***** We were hoping for 200 to sign up. Turns out a lot of us were ready for this – more than 900 registered for RP’s July 21-30 screen-fast challenge, and we heard about others who joined the fast without signing up. Safe to say, over a thousand people across the country came together to put our screens in their place. That is amazing! But maybe it shouldn’t have been surprising. God’s people know He wants us to make good use of the time He’s given us, and we know that our phones too often have us wasting moments that turn into minutes, which can add up to lost hours each week. We needed to hit the reset and get back control. So how’d we all do? Of the 160 responses we received, three-quarters managed to stay away from their screens for 9 days or better. They also shared stories, tips on what worked, what they found toughest, suggestions on how we could do this even better next time, and what got them most excited about the fast. And we’re very excited to share their thoughts with you. EYE OPENING One term kept popping up in the feedback – “eye-opening.” “It was a very humbling experience for me. I am a fairly busy person as it is, between nursing school, 2 kids, and running a household, but I will say that the amount of hours I still managed to waste away doing mindless scrolling or pointless video-watching was disconcerting, to put it lightly.” “I thought I was pretty good about staying off my phone, but I really had to remind myself not to pick it up. I've only had a phone since October, and already it has become such an integral part of my life.” "The screen-fast started while we were away on vacation, and what a blessing this was! At first, I thought it would be easy; after all, I had books to read, family to visit with, and a beach calling my name. I had deleted all of my social media accounts a couple of years ago. I thought I barely used my phone in comparison to others. Boy, was I wrong. I never realized how often I was reaching for my phone, oftentimes for no specific purpose other than to fill time or cure boredom! Looking at the weather, reading the news, playing games – my phone sucked me in even without social media being present! The screen-fast has truly been a blessing. It reminded me of the value of being present, of shared experiences, of all the little moments that I would have missed out on had I been scrolling on my phone. I learned that it's okay to have moments of quiet, stillness, and even boredom! Sometimes, it is in these quiet moments of being in creation that God speaks the loudest: His power in the wind and waves, His beauty in the flowers, His tenderness, care, and grace towards me in that He used these moments to calm any anxieties that were lurking within me. Thank you, Reformed Perspective, for encouraging this experience!" “My oldest (11) had a hard time sticking to the screen-fast and caved 3 times. Hard to believe how much of a pull a screen has on a person! Makes me want to live in the Little House on the Prairie times, where screens just weren’t available and outside play was their entertainment.” “I just itched to check social media and would find myself comforted by just holding my phone close, even though there was nothing to look at. I realized that I don't like this about myself.” “It was well needed and brought my screen time down to about 15-30 minutes a day from my usual 2-2.5 hours. I hope to keep my screen time down as much as I can because I’m so much more productive and observant of the world around me when I’m not on it.” TOGETHER IS EASIER Some participants didn’t know anyone else doing it, even with a thousand across the country involved. Those with friends and family joining in found it much easier. “My sister and I challenged each other and we both finished (almost) successfully. We both started reading again after having lost the habit of reading and gained the habit of scrolling. I’m very happy to be reading again and I noticed how much I can get done with the time I used to waste. I will definitely be more careful with my screen time in the future.” “I found that since my family didn’t participate, it was hard to maintain self-control when others were using their devices.” “I did it with my wife – we found that especially when we were both free in the evening, we would be more productive, but also, we spent more quality time with each other. It made me realize how often I would just reach for my phone when I was bored or between tasks; it feels great to have kicked that habit.” "We had family come for summer holidays and they willingly partook (kids too)! Fishing and bike rides at 7 am rather than cartoons…win! We enjoyed creation so much more, especially in the evenings. I loved having it as a challenge; it kept me more accountable and successful. Thanks for doing this for us!" DON’T ALWAYS NEED INSTANT ANSWERS “I have a tendency to google everything as it comes up in a conversation, and not being able to was refreshing, and kept me more focused on the person instead of the topic.” “The thing that surprised me was how often I had the compulsion to Google a question that popped into my mind, or research the proper way to do something, or make a quick purchase of something I remembered I needed. I realized that technology is very helpful, but also there is benefit in taking a pause, making a shopping list, or asking a friend rather than Google when I have a gardening question. My 10-year-old said that she found more space to be creative when the computer and TV was off. " “My kids didn't miss their own screen time, but they realized how much they asked me to look things up for them. Not having immediate access to information is not such a bad thing.” FAMILY-LIFE Less screens = more life was evident on the home front. “We had meals at the kitchen table instead of in the living room while watching YouTube.” “I noticed our kids really improved in playing for longer periods of time. If they complained they were bored, I would suggest they try an activity for 20 minutes, and often 1 hour later they would still be busy.” “We did do more different things together when we didn't spend as much time playing games or watching videos on the TV or computer. It forced my kids, in particular, to stretch their imagination a bit to come up with more different things to do. The intermittent cries of 'I'm bored!' were met with, 'Well, then you need to find something to do!' My kids had always been good at keeping busy, but it was good for them to exercise those creative muscles, and remind us all of all the options that we have, both on and off the screen.” “The main things I've been struggling with were not wasting time on my phone (e.g., games, videos), not using my phone during time with my toddler, and not using my phone in bed, so I focused on those and was able to significantly improve in those areas. It definitely helped with spending quality time with my son without distractions so that I was more focused on him and his needs.” “It helped me reconnect with my wife. Instead of sitting on the couch consuming content in the evenings, we went for more walks and had more time to talk about what was going on.” “There was a lot more interacting happening throughout the family, and everyone seemed happier. It felt like a lot less fighting happened.” “It was easier to connect and interact with my kids. I realized how much I used my phone when they were awake even though I thought I was being conscious of not using it while they were awake." “My children (4 and under) appeared less needy, and I think it is because I was more focused on what was going on around me.” “Because I was screen-free, my kids didn't even ask for screen time. My 18-year-old daughter loved it. She noticed she was far more creative and read more books (which is her natural habitat) than when she had a screen to distract her.” “It was harder than I thought it would be. Especially right before bed. But not being on screens before bed allowed more time for my wife and I to spend time together.” WANTING TO BE AN EXAMPLE “Helped me to realize that in a screen-filled world, as a parent and adult, I am an example to my daughter and the younger generation as to how much a phone has a hold on me." “It was better when the children are around not to have YouTube on in the background; I could be more present with them, even while doing dishes. I think I will continue to try to save my Podcast/YouTube listening for when the children are in bed.” “I am disappointed that I didn’t do this sooner. My oldest kiddo is 7 and I feel like my phone has been a large part of her life. It’s my job now, as it was before, to teach her, along with my other kids, how to use this technology properly and not to use and abuse it. I am striving to use it less and less, and more for emergencies, or for the free time that I’ve allowed myself to use it.” DEVOTIONS Many mentioned how helpful the fast was for their devotions, making sure time with the Lord didn’t get crowded out by inconsequentials. “Just made me realize I need to read my bible FIRST……not after the morning's scroll!” "I found I actually had time to do my devotions in the morning, even if my kids were up. Before I had been grabbing my phone if I wasn’t going to have perfect uninterrupted time for devotions.” “My morning devotions improved immediately! When you don’t have your phone in the morning you really do need to replace it with something. " READING In addition to the Bible, many, many other books (and at least one magazine) were read too. One person shared: "More reading in 10 days than the last 3 years!” "I definitely did more reading! I haven’t picked up a fictional book in a long time because, as a busy mom, I found it a ‘waste of time’ to read fiction…. somehow scrolling on my phone every evening to have some mindless down time was better?! I don’t think so. I enjoy that time in the evening to relax for a bit, but it is much better spent reading an engaging book!” “I read the whole RP magazine front to back in the moments that I would pick up my phone when I was bored.” “The biggest difference for me was dedicating more intentional time to read. I managed to finish 3 of Jane Austen's novels. I'm thrilled to add them to my recommended reading list!” “…relearned how to read a book in under a day. Been through so many books.” “…for downtime, instead of watching a show every night like I normally do, I read more and had more conversations with my family as well.” BETTER MENTAL PLACE Sociologist Jonathan Haidt is convinced that social media is fueling this generation’s teen mental health crisis, but doing without Facebook and Instagram isn’t just good for the kids. “In regards to social media particularly, the fast made me realize that while social media can be enjoyable and good, it's also almost like a subconscious burden to try to ‘keep up’ with everyone and everything all the time. Being off of it for 10 days was really freeing and refreshing.” “I… learned that when I'm anxious, instead of running to Google to try to ease my anxiety, I should run to God in prayer.” “It felt good, in the sense that my brain didn't feel distracted by useless information coming in at a fast pace. I found I could spend time on my screen sorting photos, but I didn't scroll Instagram. It took a few days to notice that my brain felt a little less full, and I felt totally focused on my life, instead of having a 20-minute binge session after lunch to be inundated with strangers’ lives. I did read more, during that after-lunch quiet time, and also before bed. My screen time didn't interfere with family time, it was just something I would do to 'wind down' or 'relax' once kids were napping or in bed for the night. I didn't miss it. One evening I did log on to find a recipe I'd saved on Instagram and ended up scrolling...I felt gross. It felt like I had to re-join the real world when I finally put my phone down, and it became very obvious to me how little value it adds to my life for the amount of time spent on the app.” “One of the biggest things for me was not checking my work email on my phone. I didn’t realize how much head space that had been taking up! It was a big relaxant to have set hours to check only on my laptop.” “My brain felt quieter. All those little moments where I would have quickly checked Facebook, or scrolled, to ‘relax’ were removed from my day and I didn't realize how much they cluttered my mind. The screen-fast really helped me to be more aware of that, which will hopefully give me more control over those impulses to reach for my phone moving forward. My husband and I both did it and found ourselves going on more evening bike rides, having more chats, and just doing more quality time things than we did before. It was so refreshing, and I think we definitely feel more connected. I also had more focused time for devotions, and because I deleted many apps from my phone, I had no reason to pick it up and get distracted. I'm hoping to keep a lot of the habits enforced by the fast because I definitely need them, and life is better when your phone has less time in your hand!” “What a beautiful challenge! My experience was that I suddenly became much more present: in my home life, my church life, and my friend life. It brought me closer to God in my devotional time, provided time for reflection, enabled me to read most of a book, and granted me a peace that I didn't even realize was missing.” “I also felt less stress because I was not being inundated with news…. Although a person never thinks they are spending ‘that much’ time on their phone, it's not just the physical act of scrolling or being on social media. It occupies mental space after you put the phone down. Your attention is divided and things you see and do on your phone inadvertently affect your mood and ability to focus throughout the day. You may be worrying about something you saw in the news and it will affect how you treat people around you, even if you cannot do anything about it, or it doesn't even really affect you. You may be in the habit of checking your phone for notifications every few minutes (you'd be surprised how often you may do this) and it can make the simplest tasks take much longer than required, which will in turn make you feel frustrated. The less time you spend on your phone, the more wisdom you will use when you do pick it up. I noticed I was much less likely to scroll Instagram and more naturally inclined to listen to a sermon in the evening after the children were in bed. I was always feeling stressed about the time I thought I was spending on my phone, and appreciate the push to try just being on it less. It has certainly been an eye-opener for me!” “I found myself more content with everything, and could easily enjoy hobbies I had long forgotten. I found myself thanking God for the little moments and was reminded of the blessings He has given me." “I listen to a lot of podcasts and audiobooks while doing housework, and not doing that for 10 days made me realize that always having something on to listen to does not help me be present with my family. It was good to have the quiet space, and engage in some spiritual warfare by taking thoughts captive that are not obedient to Christ. I’m not going back on any social medias because I’ve broken the spell that says I will miss out or not be in-the-know…. They take up too much brain space that is needed for more important things.” BETTER SLEEP "I feel I slept better because of no screen time before bed, and I read a biblical book in the morning instead of going on Facebook.” “…I had to get used to sleeping without going on my phone right before bed. I had dreams that I could remember in the morning!” MORE PRODUCTIVITY Ten minutes here, and ten minutes there, can really add up in time wasted, but also in time put to good use. “I somewhat reluctantly signed up for the screen-fast, as my wife and kids were participating, but reflecting on it now, I can see God's hand working through them and the screen-fast. I spent more time reading the Bible and additional study material, and more time in prayer and reflection. I was able to think more clearly after the first few days, as the cheap distraction of screens was gone. This gave me time and focus to think through issues at work which I've been contending with for around a year, and come to difficult decisions there that I had perhaps been avoiding.” “I am working on a baby blanket for my son (knitting) and I was able to set a minimum for how much I wanted to complete on it daily, a minimum that seemed impossible to me before, and I was actually able to meet the minimum no problem.” "My husband participated as well, and has continued to not go onto social media. I found it most difficult to not pop onto social media when waiting for the mundane things, like water to boil/meat to cook. I would often go onto social media in these moments; at first it felt odd to not scroll, but I quickly would start to tidy the kitchen in these moments, so the result is a cleaner house :) and I did spend more time in God's Word, and reading short devotions here and there instead of picking up my phone." “The first few days I noticed a significant amount of improvement in my productivity. Without doom-scrolling on my phone, I was able to head out for a walk, dust off my book, and go to bed on time. I was able to spend a little more time with family and friends. Rather than watching a movie with my girlfriend after a long day, we decided to head out for a drive to enjoy the summer weather, which was awesome! I was able to spend more time reading my Bible before bed by keeping my phone in the kitchen, and used a good old-fashioned alarm clock to wake me up.” DOWNSIDES While there was lots to love about putting our phones aside for a time, there were some downsides too. “…I also found that it made me less likely to organize get-togethers if I had to phone people up instead of fire off a quick text; the kids and I ended up not doing as many things with friends or neighbors. I did make a few nice phone calls to people, since I was conscious of phoning instead of texting.” “I had a hard time not listening to my audiobooks and podcasts. I was more available for my kids (when I listen to audios, I have noise-cancelling headphones), but I had less ambition to do projects around the house that I would normally listen to something while doing. I also missed watching something at the end of a long day, but did enjoy my walks, and more reading of a physical book compared to an audio.” "I felt very disconnected from my family without WhatsApp group messaging! I was available via regular messaging, but it turns out that one-to-one messages are a rarity... if you aren’t on the group chat there isn't much to say. My 10-year-old son said: ‘It affected me because you didn't know as much about what other people in our family were doing.’ Keeping email off my phone (both work and personal) will stay. It was very restful to not be constantly checking emails and going down rabbit holes in the moment." “I missed seeing update posts from friends on Instagram or Facebook. For example, there was a family wedding and I wanted to go on social media to see some photos. I felt that I was missing out, not being able to do this. I came to the conclusion that family and friend updates can be one of the fun things about social media.” LASTING IMPACT? How can we apply the lessons learned? Some are planning on “having periodic screen-fasts in the future.” “…our family has decided to do a ‘modified fast’ for the rest of the summer and this was initiated by our children. Our stage of life (everyone working and/or attending post-secondary) means we don’t often have large blocks of time together but it was nice to spend more time in the evening sharing about our days and chatting.” “Going forward, I’ve used the settings in my phone to limit my time on certain apps. I’ve also cut out around half of the influencers I follow on Instagram so that I’m only following people I learn from (news, DIY, Christian content, etc.)" “Now that I’m done, I’m way more okay with leaving my phone in a bag or even at home.” “Going forward, I will be deleting social media apps from my phone. Thank you for prompting us to give this challenge a try! I think that it's fair to say that it will be life-changing.” “I intend to do this screen-fast again in the future and strongly encourage anyone who has not done it to do so, and aim to grow in service of our gracious God.” “I enjoyed the screen fast, and hope to do it again, and include more of my family members.” “From the get-go, I decided not to try 10 days but figured I could do 5. And you know what? It was easy! And it was good for me. I know I spend too much time on social media and playing games on my phone. I plan to do it again on a regular basis.” TIPS The most common tip mentioned was to delete social media apps from our phones. Another idea was to buy an alarm clock instead of using your phone to wake up. Here’s more… “…eliminate phones from your bedroom. Reading my Bible nightly is way more likely to happen when Instagram is more than a click away. That Christian influencer's advice might be insightful, but God's Word will not return empty (Isaiah 55:11)." “I …have continued a few habits I built, like delaying the first phone check of the day.” “I found freedom also in separating my phone from bedtime and wake time. This led to more prayer time. I think I was allowing the phone, instead of faith, to ease me into my day and I’m looking forward to continuing practice.” “We realized that phones are still an essential part of our lives but that the 'social media' part of it doesn't need to be so extensive. A regular phone call to someone can be so enjoyable and truly connecting. I have since called many people and just had a good chat. Hoping to keep this method up. I will keep my notifications 'OFF.'” “I made a rule for myself a couple years ago, that at the start of every day, I may not look at my phone until after my breakfast devotions were finished. It really helps to be very disciplined about not falling into bad habits. Make rules and stick to them. I also tell myself that it's okay to be bored.”   Cartoons by Hannah Penninga....

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3 questions to help us use AI better. ***** The Preacher declares in Ecclesiastes 1:9 that “there is nothing new under the sun.” He was saying it with a sense of despair, but there’s a reality there that can prove helpful too. Even with something newfangled like AI, the issues aren’t all new. And because we’ve seen some of this before, we can look to history for guidance. So here are three questions to help us look to the past to see how we can best use today’s AI. Q. 1: Am I using AI to skip my exercise? For as long as there have been schools, there’s probably been boys learning how to do division in ways their math teacher wasn’t intending. If little Timmy and a couple of his third grade buddies did their homework together, the three of them would quickly realize that an assignment of 15 questions could be done 3 times as quickly if they did 5 questions each and shared their answers. That gets the assignment done in record time, but these “get ‘er done” boys misunderstood the point. The teacher’s goal isn’t simply to get 15 right answers from them – she could go to the back of the teacher’s edition if that was all she was after. What she wants is for her students to go through the struggle of working through each of the 15 questions so that their brain muscles will grow. What Timmy has done instead is the equivalent of recruiting his two friends to each attend a third of his basketball practice for him. That’d be a better cheat actually, because it wouldn’t take him long to figure out that his shooting percentage isn’t going to improve so long as he isn’t putting up the shots. The issue is older even than schools, addressed in various ways throughout Scripture, but maybe most pointedly in Proverbs 10:4: “Lazy hands make for poverty, but diligent hands bring wealth” and Galatians 6:7: “Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows.” Now, in our AI age, there are students using ChatGPT, Claude, and Gemini to skip their school “workouts” in this updated fashion, and still not making the connection as to how that’ll keep them mentally and spiritually flabby, stopping them from growing in knowledge, wisdom, and capacity. Adults have their own version of this problem, complicated by the reality that sometimes it is just about “getting ‘er done,” while other times it’s about needing to get stretched and refined by the work you put in. Need a pile of rocks moved? Then having a couple of friends help is a great idea. Got access to some tech that will do the heavy lifting for you? Great, go drive that tractor over here. In an office setting, AI can help us move all sorts of “rocks,” by doing the big-effort-but-little-thought tasks of quickly compiling your week’s billable hours, assembling your spreadsheets into an array of insightful, colorful pie charts, or gathering and summarizing vast amounts of research material. But if, like little Timmy, we thought it was always about the results, we’d miss out on when it’s important to put in the sweat. There’s a Stephen King quote about how “I write to find out what I think” and it’s exactly there that AI might be most harming us. We don’t all have to be writers, but if we’re going to be thinkers, then we need to be able to get our thoughts down on paper, or up on a computer, or batted around with our coworkers. That process will allow them to be tested and refined, and sometimes discarded. It’s the sweat invested that helps us really think through things. AI can even be a part of the process, being a part of the batting-around refinement. But we can’t use it to skip over that process. When we should or shouldn’t use AI will depend on whether we just need to get ‘er done, or whether we should be putting in the exercise to increase our own capacity, knowledge, and wisdom. Figuring out which we’re doing is complicated by the fact that our jobs are going to regularly involve a mix of both. A pastor might use AI as an upgraded search engine to much more quickly gather up what his most trusted theologians have said about the text he’s planning to preach on. But he can’t pull a Timmy and have AI write his sermon, because his job isn’t simply to read a sermon, but to glorify God in the preparation of it, so that he can tailor it to the flock God has entrusted to him and not to AI. Q. 2: Am I owning my output? And that takes us to the issue of responsibility. AI brings up some powerful temptations on this front, but, again, it’s nothing new for Man to try to avoid blame by sidestepping his own responsibility. “The man said, ‘The woman you put here with me – she gave me some fruit from the tree, and I ate it’” (Gen. 3:12). With AI’s instantaneous output, what that prompts is the very strong temptation to skip over the “is this actually right?” stage. After all, if you’ve generated a whole report in seconds, doesn’t it seem weird to spend half an hour checking through it? And that’s how you get output like the pictured post from the US Department of Education. It was meant to promote jobs that AI isn’t going to replace any time soon, but it went viral for showing what kind of output AI can provide when the humans in charge aren’t really taking charge. Pipes, pipes, everywhere… and what is that tool she’s using? In our day-to-day, this temptation will pop up in small ways, like using Gemini’s auto-response to reply to an email you’ve barely read. See how impressed your coworker will be when he pops by your office door for a follow-up and you can’t recall what he’s even talking about because your brain was never engaged. This isn’t a big thing – it might be the difference between having AI complete an email response in 3 seconds that you should have taken 30 seconds to do yourself so you’d know and recall what you wrote. In our schools, AI can be used to generate math and spelling worksheets, and history and geography pop quizzes in just seconds. For the most part, that’s just AI helping teachers “move rocks,” and what a wonderful resource for them to have. But their students will be wondering why teachers can turn to AI to do the heavy lifting when their pupils aren’t allowed to. To keep students’ hypocrisy-detectors from firing off, teachers will then need to model the highest standards of responsible AI usage. Practically speaking, that means putting in the time proofreading whatever they have AI outputting. How can they convince students they need to put in the sweat if they’re not willing to sweat themselves? Q. 3: What’s missing from my AI output? What makes a lot of AI output cheesy? What’s “off” about it? The other side of this question would be, “What makes something valuable?” There’ll be a subjective nature to any answer to that question because there’s a degree to which beauty is in the eye of the beholder. One person might like Rembrandt, another AI-manufactured alien landscapes. To each their own. But a friend passed along something he’d learned from a Tim Keller sermon on 1 Cor. 13. Here Paul makes the point that prophecies, tongues, and even charity, without love, are nothing. While we were excited about all that AI could do just a year ago, now we’ve coined the term “AI slop” and lament the “AI gloss” detectable in its pictures and written work. Maybe what Paul is saying explains this reaction. Someone could use AI to produce a “new” Rembrandt or maybe a “new” piece by Bach, manufactured in seconds by having these artists’ styles convincingly mimicked. The result could be beautiful, and we might not detect even a hint of “AI gloss.” Yet would we treasure these new works like the old? No. Why? Because AI allowed them to be created without sweat or thought. They were made without love. Love is why the kids’ art on Oma’s fridge is treasured – because of the love going both ways. And love is why the poems many households craft to accompany Christmas presents were better before AI was there to perfect them. Butchered meters and forced rhymes – and the care involved in crafting each line – were what made the merriment. Could an aspiring poet partner time and intent with AI to lovingly craft a poem for his beloved wife? Certainly. AI usage doesn’t have to be loveless. But AI without love? That’s nothing at all. Jon Dykstra realizes he should write his beloved wife more poetry, with or without AI help....

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