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Transgender to Transformed

by Laura Perry
2019 / 192 pages

This may not be a book for everyone. It’s a hard-hitting, at times overly graphic, account of one person’s struggle with transgenderism. While painful, it’s also a hopeful book because it peels away the layers of lies, deceptions, and mistruths commonly found in most media outlets. It’s most definitely a book for mature and discerning readers only.

Laura Perry, the author of Transgender to Transformed, grew up in a Christian community. Already at an early age, she felt trapped in her female body, and she eventually had her breasts cut off, and began living as a male. She soon become disillusioned with transgenderism. Rather than feeling free, she was bound to a growing snowball of lies and fakeness.

However, she did love presenting herself as a man and even thought she could be a “man of God” after she returned to Christianity. But God laid it on her heart that He does not make mistakes and it was her feelings that had to change, not His reality. Convinced she had to completely submit to God’s will, and acknowledging she could only do it by His power, she left her partner, her job, her fake identity as a man, and returned to God and embraced being a woman. In her words:

“When I left the lifestyle, I didn’t know if He would ever take away those feelings. But if I had to suffer with the feelings the rest of my life and feel like a freak in a body I hated, I was willing to endure it to serve Jesus Christ.”

A troubled childhood and youth

Already as a child Laura began to hate the body she was born in. A noisy, rambunctious extrovert in comparison to her quiet, obedient brother, she thought her mom would love her more if she was a boy. Her innocence was stolen when she was only eight years old, and this set her on a path of sexual promiscuity. Feeling that boys and men seemed to have all the power in a relationship, Laura fantasized about being a boy. Supremely angry at her parents and at God, and addicted to her self-centered lifestyle, she made a conscious decision to sin in every way possible.

As a teen, Laura struggled with her health, especially her monthly cycle. This made her jealous of men. Then, when her mom found nutritional supplements that helped improve her health, it didn’t change Laura’s attitude – she still hated her female system. In fact, she refused to take the supplements, causing her health to spiral out of control, and then she blamed God for her misery. Her ballooning weight made it difficult to find men interested in a relationship. Turning to pornography and casual sex left her feeling dirty, used, and broken and she wished she could become the boyfriend she so desperately wanted.

Life-changing decisions

As Laura drifted through life searching for happiness, she became certain that her life would improve if only she became a man. Desperate to escape the prison of her female body, she surfed the web. This was in 2007, prior to transgenderism becoming a buzzword, and when she first learned the term “transgender,” it opened a whole new world for her. Finding a support group for people who wanted to be the opposite sex seemed like an answer to prayer.

The first few years were a honeymoon period. Physically, the male hormones she started taking began to change her, and she was elated when strangers started seeing her as a man. Living as a man (renamed Jake), together with a biological male identifying as a woman (renamed Jackie), Laura was in love with her new identity.

Disillusioned with the transgender lifestyle

But over the next years Laura became severely depressed. A piece of paper now said she was a man, but the promised freedom had become a prison cell: clothes that didn’t fit, ongoing monthly injections, the feeling of living a lie. She was especially afraid of discovery when using the men’s restrooms. Laura started realizing she was never going to truly be a man, but she resolved to live her life in limbo rather than embrace her female reality again.

While summarizing Bible lessons for her mom’s Bible study group, she came to realize there was life in the Bible and that it wasn’t just an old-fashioned rule book. The Bible and God were becoming real to her, but she still clung to her feelings, convincing herself she had a birth defect, and that God intended for her to be a boy. But as she pored over the Bible over the next few years, Laura became more and more convinced of her sin of living as a man.

Then, while listening to a conservative radio show one day, Laura heard: “We are made in the image of God, and we can choose our behavior despite our feelings.” This cut her to the heart, and she began to admit to herself that she needed to repent. She realized that on Judgment Day, God would be calling her by name, and it would not be “Jake.”

Finally, Laura did the hardest thing she had ever done, even more difficult than her identity change eight years before. She left behind her male name, her partner, her home, and her job, and returned to her parents and church, as a woman.

Conclusion

In reading Laura’s story, young adults – and older ones – will realize that growing up in a Christian community won’t insulate us from transgenderism. Fifteen years ago, Laura had to intentionally search the Internet to discover the world of transgenderism and a support group. Now, rough estimates are that 65% of youth who change their gender identity are first introduced to this confusion by influencers on social media… without any prior struggles or thoughts about being the other gender.

Do you know someone struggling with feelings of wanting to be another gender? Show compassion – and tough love. Laura credits her family with being a lighthouse in her storm. They stood unwavering, refusing to affirm her feelings, and continuing to call her by her given name. Although she hated them for it at the time, she now knows it was the most loving thing they could have done, and she says:

“Despite the fact that I had rejected God and all the truth I had heard growing up in a Christian home and attending a Christian school, it was not in vain. Everything I had learned had planted the seeds that were just waiting to burst forth to life.”

Individuals truly struggling with their identity are often hurting. Pain may come from past abuse, or trauma can transform into self-love, with the desire to escape reality and put on a mask. This is in direct rebellion to our Creator. The Potter creates vessels for His use and purposes, but it is fallen human nature that rebels and says God must not have known what He was doing (but as we read in Isaiah 29:16: “…shall the thing framed say of Him that framed it, He had no understanding?”) In Transgender to Transformed, hurting individuals can find hope and help without turning their back on their family, their faith, and their community by self-creating a new identity.

Although Laura loved her life masquerading as a man, she quickly became disillusioned with the transgender lifestyle. Eventually she came to realize that breast amputations and chemical cocktails can never change gender: she could never become a man. More importantly, she could never call herself a true Christian without denying herself. This crushing reality brought with it a true struggle against self, and only with God’s power could she fight her fleshly desires and live as God created her.

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Transgenderism

You think feelings can redefine reality? What if I told you I feel like they don’t?

There’s a special sort of tyranny at work these days – it is the sort that not only ignore reality itself, but demands that everyone else do so too…or else. There are many examples of this. For instance: there is the idea that there really are no differences between men and women, and that both can perform all tasks to the same degree. there is an idea that the unborn only become human beings when the mother decides they are human beings. there is the idea that marriage is something that can take place between two men or two women. there is the idea that a person who was born biologically male can transition to become female, and vice versa. How they’re pulling off this trick Transgenderism offers a good case in point. Take the recent Gender Identity Guidance issued by the Massachusetts Commission Against Discrimination. According to Eugene Volokh, writing in the Washington Post:  “Under Massachusetts law, refusing to use a transgender person’s preferred pronoun would be punishable discrimination. (At least this is true of “he” or “she” — I saw nothing in the document about “ze” and other newly made-up pronouns.) The Massachusetts document … makes that clear in the employment context, and it also makes clear that the antidiscrimination law rules apply to places of public accommodations (including churches, in “secular events” “open to the public”) just as much as to employment.”  Now, let’s notice the sleight of hand that has taken place in the whole transgender issue. Take the imaginary case of Bob, who is transitioning to become Carol. He is objectively male, right? That is his factual, actual biological sex. By which I mean that at some point in the past, the midwife present at his birth pronounced him to be a boy, and we can assume that she made this assessment on the basis of objective data, rather than on a personal whim. Indeed, had she pronounced Bob to be a girl, or even non-gender specific, despite the clear evidence to the contrary, Bob’s parents would no doubt have corrected her and, had she still insisted on ignoring the evidence, made a complaint.  But at some point after that, Bob came to believe that the objective data was wrong. So he chose to undergo a process of bodily mutilation. Note, however, that the objective data was not wrong. How could it be? It is objective, including physically provable characteristics and XY chromosomes. As a report by two American College of Pediatricians doctors put it: “Human sexuality is an objective biological binary trait: “XY” and “XX” are genetic markers of male and female, respectively – not genetic markers of disorder.” They go on to say that: “No one is born with a gender. Everyone is born with a biological sex. Gender (an awareness of oneself as male or female) is a sociological and psychological concept; not an objective biological one.” In other words, while we can state with absolute certainty that biological sex is a demonstrably objective reality, Bob’s decision to transition away is based on a subjective feeling. Indeed, the very fact that Bob needs surgery to make the transition rather proves the point. (As an aside, those arguing for transgenderism need to answer the question of why the body, which is objectively one thing or the other, should be made to conform to a subjective feeling of the mind, rather than the other way around.) But having made this demonstrably feelings-based decision, what happens next? Having taken a decision which is contrary to objective reality, Bob now not only identifies as a sex which is opposite to his objective biological one, but now expects everyone else to accept his feelings as having the power to redefine objective reality. Do you see what has happened? We’ve gone through four stages: Objective reality Denial of objective reality The presentation of a subjective experience The insistence that this new subjective experience is now objective truth to be assented to and obeyed Oh and there is now a fifth stage, which is that if we don’t play along, and also pretend that feelings can redefine reality, we get a label pinned to us – hater, transphobe, bigot etc – and possibly accused of a “hate crime.” If feelings beat facts…  Here are a couple of questions that we should be asking those who insist on this: If someone acts contrary to objective reality, what grounds do they then have for insisting that everyone else treat their feelings as objectively true facts? If someone chooses to make their identity a matter of feelings, what grounds do they have for saying that the rest of us cannot do the same, and call them “him” or “her” depending on how we feel? The answer to both these questions is that they have no grounds whatsoever. Having denied objective reality in favor of subjective feelings, they have no grounds to then demand that we all accept their subjective feelings as being objective facts. Secondly, having insisted on their own subjective experience as being the ultimate authority, they have no grounds for denying anyone else the same right to exercise their subjective feelings on the subject. So if someone believes Bob to be a box of breakfast cereal, for instance, I can say that they are wrong, and I can do so on the basis that the objective data shows clearly that Bob is not a box of breakfast cereal, but rather a human being. However, if Bob tries to deny someone the right to believe and openly state that he is a box of breakfast cereal, this flies in the face of the logic he used in the first place to proclaim against his own objective biological sex. Who knows – perhaps denying people their subjective rights to call other people boxes of breakfast cereal might even be a new hate crime. Bransphobia? It’s not going to get better soon And yet despite having no grounds to insist on these things, they are insisting on it in increasingly vitriolic tones, and with the threat of the law behind them. This is how the new sort of tyranny works. It tears up objective reality, then imposes a new subjectivity in its place. But it doesn’t stop there. It then insists that society embraces that subjectivity as now being objectively true, and censure, shout down, and even prosecute those who refuse to play ball. The bad news is that things aren’t going to get better anytime soon. Those who are busy denying reality as God has given it and defined it, are too invested in their delusions to give them up. They aren’t suddenly going to say, “Hey, I guess it is really rather stupid to insist that there are no differences between men and women, or that two men can marry.” No, they will double down, and triple down on it for the foreseeable future. And as they do, there will come more assaults on objective reality, more attempts to force others to embrace their delusion, and more efforts to get us all to put our rubber stamp of approval on this folly. Those who dissent will be stigmatized, penalized and coerced into silence. This is what this newest sort of tyranny does. Our hope and our response? But the good news? It is that the Triune God of Heaven and Earth – not these tyrants – is actually the final arbiter of what is real and what is true, and He will not allow this situation to go on indefinitely. It’s his world and his reality, and He will at some point overthrow those who attempt to overthrow his order. Time and time throughout history, He has risen up to overthrow his enemies and deliver his people. And He will do so again. However, these deliverances ordinarily come when his people truly “cry out to the Lord.” So let me finish up by asking a very searching question. I recently held a discussion group with some Christian friends, where I covered a little of the history of how we ended up with transgenderism, same-sex marriage, no-fault divorce, family breakdown, tolerance and diversity, sex education, egalitarianism, feminism, “homophobia” and “hate” crimes. Having gone through it all, and having unanimously agreed that it was all quite mad and more than a little disquieting, I asked the following question: “Put your hand up if you are praying fervently to the Triune God on a regular basis to come and save us and our culture from this mess.” No hands went up. How about you? Rob Slane is the author of “A Christian & an Unbeliever Discuss: Life, the Universe & Everything” which is available at Amazon.ca here and Amazon.com here....